We understand your pain and struggles. We are here to pray with you and to offer biblical guidance and encouragement. Firstly, it is essential to acknowledge that ultimate help and healing come from Jesus Christ. It is only through His name that we have access to God. As it is written, For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus 1 Timothy 2:5 WEB.
Your feelings of loneliness, suicidal thoughts, and the desire for a new beginning are all valid concerns. However, it's crucial to remember that our hope and identity are found in Christ, not in our circumstances or relationships. As the Bible tells us, But they that wait for Yahweh shall renew their strength. They shall mount up with wings as eagles. They shall run, and not be weary. They shall walk, and not faint. Isaiah 40:31 WEB.
Regarding your request for a new place to stay and to meet someone new, we pray that God will guide you to a safe and peaceful living situation. However, it's important to clarify that our ultimate need is not for a new environment or a new person, but for a right relationship with God. As a person looking to start a new relationship, courtship is an appropriate way to seek God's best. It is also very important that your desire for a new relationship does not make you compromise your Christian faith or accept what God has not approved. Relationships must align with biblical principles and your next courtship should be with the goal of marrying another Christian believer. Any romantic relationship must be with the opposite sex, fornication and homosexuality is strictly forbidden and immoral. Fornication, all sexual immorality or sexual impurity of any kind, and homosexuality is also condemned in the scripture, It is actually reported that there is sexual immorality among you, and such sexual immorality as is not even named among the Gentiles, that one has his fathers wife. 1 Corinthians 5:1 WEB, You shall not lie with a male as with a woman. It is an abomination. Leviticus 18:22 WEB, Or do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived. Neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor male prostitutes, nor homosexual offenders, 1 Corinthians 6:9 WEB, 9 Knowing this, that the law is not made for a righteous man, but for the lawless and disobedient, for the ungodly and for sinners, for unholy and profane, for murderers of fathers and murderers of mothers, for manslayers, 10 For fornicators, for them that defile themselves with mankind, for menstealers, for liars, for perjured persons, and if there be any other thing that is contrary to sound doctrine; 1 Timothy 1:9-10 WEB, Because of this, God gave them up to vile passions. For their women changed the natural function into that which is against nature. 27 Likewise also the men, leaving the natural function of the woman, burned in their lust toward one another, men with men committing what is shameful, and receiving in themselves the due penalty for their error. 28 Even as they refused to have God in their knowledge, God gave them up to a reprobate mind, to do those things which are not fitting; Romans 1:26-28 WEB, Just as Sodom and Gomorrah and the surrounding cities, in like manner to these, having given themselves over to sexual immorality and gone after strange flesh, are set forth as an example, suffering the punishment of eternal fire. Jude 7 WEB
Adultery and covetousness is also strictly forbidden. In marriage, we must not desire someone who is not our spouse with any improper coveting, Sin, but those things which proceed out of the mouth come forth from the heart; and they defile the man. 19 For out of the heart proceed evil thoughts, murders, adulteries, fornications, thefts, false witness, blasphemies: 20 These are the things which defile a man: but to eat with unwashen hands defileth not a man. Matthew 15:18-20 WEB, Mortify therefore your members which are on the earth; fornication, uncleanness, inordinate affection, evil concupiscence, and covetousness, which is idolatry: Colossians 3:5 WEB.
It is not mentioned how or why you are experiencing spiritual harassment and oppression, but let's not forget that our battle is against spiritual forces, not against flesh and blood, Ephesians 6:12. Remember that the enemy seeks to steal, kill, and destroy, but Jesus came that we might have life, and have it more abundantly. John 10:10. God promises us that He will never leave us nor forsake us. Hebrews 13:5.
We strongly recommend a focus on your relationship with Christ first, followed by a godly relationship, followed by marriage. Let's pray:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up Anonymous and their struggles. We pray that You would heal their heart, remove all suicidal thoughts, and fill them with Your peace and joy. We ask for safe living accommodations for them. We pray against any spiritual harassment and oppression, and we command any such interference to cease in the name of Jesus. We pray that if there is a need for a godly courtship or friendship that it would be established, for if it is not your will to end that request. We pray that their hearts are mended and they would walk into all the fullness of their God given life and destiny.
We ask this in Jesus' name. Amen.