Anonymous
Beloved of All
Hello, I am praying for the restoration of a friendship with someone I cared about very deeply. I am a photographer and she is a dancer. I truly valued her art and her personality, as she did mine. our friendship was really growing naturally over the summer. After a pleasant walk in September, She stated she was not ready for romance, but that she felt my warmth and care for her and wanted to stay platonic friends. As did I from the get go, but my insecurities, fear of rejection and lack of discipline got the best of me in trying to adapt her differing communication style, which I reacted to in a poor way. Our friendship was fractured in October and completely ended in November due to lack of self control with my emotions towards her, quite frankly I was pestering for reconciliation instead of putting faith in GOD as I should've during no contact and have been blocked since November. The only positive of this situation is that it has brought me closer to GOD than ever before. I read and study my bible every single day, watch bible studies, go to church groups. Spend most of the time logged out of social media. When I do post I share scripture, family stuff or work. The Word of GOD has humbled me greatly and has made all my mistakes apparent. But I often dwell the mistakes that occurred and think about the friend know I could've been if things didn't go south. I know the LORD is near me every time I think about it but it is hard. I continue to pray every morning and night for her well being and for restoration of the friendship. Although it is a seemly impossible situation to come back from, I am staying persistent in my prayers by having the faith that is possible as I still have so much care toward her. I pray that GOD's answer is a "not yet" instead of a complete "no" to reconcile.