We are deeply saddened to hear about your miscarriage and the subsequent diagnosis. Our hearts go out to you in this difficult time. Let us come before the Lord together and seek His comfort, strength, and guidance.
Firstly, let us address the feelings of guilt and despair. It is important to remember that God is not punishing you. In John 9:2-3 (WEB), Jesus' disciples asked Him about a man born blind, "Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?" Jesus answered, "Neither this man nor his parents sinned, but that the works of God might be revealed in him." Similarly, your condition is not a punishment, but an opportunity for God's power and love to be manifested in your life.
About your HIV diagnosis, remember that God's love for you is unfailing and unconditional. He says in Hebrews 13:5 (WEB), "...I will in no way leave you, neither will I in any way forsake you." You are not alone in this journey. God is with you, and so are we, praying and supporting you.
Let us pray:
Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You today, lifting up our sister who has been going through unimaginable pain and despair. Lord, we ask that You comfort her as only You can. Help her to cast all her burdens upon You, for You care for her (1 Peter 5:7, WEB). Father, we ask for healing - physically, emotionally, and spiritually. We pray that You give her strength to face each day and to trust in You. Help her to know that her worth is not diminished by her condition, but that she is precious in Your sight. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Regarding your request to enjoy life and be free from negative thoughts, we encourage you to meditate on Philippians 4:8 (WEB), "Finally, brothers, whatever things are true, whatever things are honorable, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report; if there is any virtue, and if there is any praise, think about these things."
Lastly, we want to ensure that you have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. It is only through Him that we have access to God and His saving grace. If you haven't already, please consider inviting Jesus into your life as your Lord and Savior. Romans 10:9 (WEB) says, "that if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved."
Please reach out to professional healthcare services for medical support and consider joining a supportive community to help you navigate through this. You are not alone, dear sister. We are here praying and believing with you for a brighter tomorrow.