Suzyq1987
Disciple of Prayer
Part 1: Bridging Spiritual and Mental Realms l A Conversation of Faith and Madness Today, I had a conversation of faith and madness with an old friend who had witnessed my behavior during my psychosis experience. This was an opportunity for me to explain that what he saw was more than just a mental health issue—it was an intense spiritual experience. We sat down together, and I read him some biblical passages that paralleled what I went through. Through these scriptures, I aimed to bridge the gap between spiritual and mental realms. By drawing these connections, I hoped to illustrate how my experiences align with those described in the Bible, offering a deeper understanding of the spiritual dimensions of what I went through. This conversation not only clarified my past experiences for him but also inspired a three-part blog series. I hope that through these posts, my readers gain insight and understanding into the deeper spiritual aspects of such experiences. - Personal Testimony - Spiritual Experience - Mental Health and Faith - Psychosis and Religion - Biblical Parallels - Spiritual Warfare - Christian Eschatology - Illuminati and Faith - Biblical Translation Issues - Mental Health Misconceptions - Demonic My Personal Struggle with Demonic Forces: What I experienced is happening to many people in the world today. I went through something that was undeniably demonic. I had SIN in my life, and HE manifested in these experiences. Talking about these experiences with my friend made me emotional. I told him that at one point, a spirit came to me, claiming to be God, and told me to put a bullet in my sleeping boyfriend's head. Before you misunderstand, I want you to know that I never contemplated doing it. I did the right thing: I got up and left, leaving my boyfriend asleep in his bed. The next day, I told him what had happened. Understandably, I realized he would probably never feel comfortable sleeping next to me again, so I decided to end the relationship. The boyfriend I’m referring to is the brother of the friend I spoke with today. I’ve also shared this story with their mother. I openly share this because, while some may misinterpret my reasons as a plea for help or prayers, that's not my intention. During those challenging times, I needed guidance—someone to help me understand what was happening to me. I knew it was real, but no one could help me. I needed someone to show me what was happening through scripture. I needed the TRUTH. I now share my story because there are millions of others experiencing similar things who, like I did, are searching for answers to their own struggles. The divine pressure to harm did not stop with my boyfriend. On another occasion, the spirit came to me again, telling me to put a bullet in my own head. It promised that if I did, I would be reincarnated as any celebrity of my choice, living a rich and wealthy life for eternity. Again, I made the right choice by throwing my pistol in the river after that. However, I didn’t fully grasp the truth of what was being said at the time. Had I followed through, I would have become one of the "many members" contributing to the body of SIN dwelling within the tabernacles of the celebrities, such as those in the rap industry, who generate so much negativity in the world. Interestingly, rappers Tom McDonald and Dax address the evil propagated through rap music in their song titled, "You can blame the rappers." It wasn’t until after I overcame psychosis that I understood the deeper truth behind what Satan, who is the god of this world, had told me. (2 Corinthians 4:4) He wasn't lying when he said he was God. All Christians know, Satan will use the truth to tell his lies. As, I said there are others out there in the world who are experiencing what I experienced. Our world today blames drug use and metal health. Even Christians, who read about demonic possession in the Bible every day don't recognize this truth, leaving those who are suffering without the help they need. Which is GUIDEANCE, not pharmakia. I am reminded of Ashley Baily, of Spartanburg County, South Carolina who slit her boyfriend's throat in 2017, claiming she was Jesus and Illuminati. This case is an example of the mind control millions believe the Illuminati to be capable of, while it intersects with mental illness. How does her story relate to mine, apart from the attempted murder? It involves Jesus and the Illuminati. The voices I heard, those "many members" of the Illuminati, told me I was the only one to have discovered the truth about the Illuminati and also claimed that I was Jesus. I never believed this during those days, though many do. I argued, "I am a woman, how could I be Jesus?" I am not Jesus, nor am I married to Jesus, but I am the bride, as Jesus (Mark 2:19) and Moses (Exodus 4:25) both were bridegrooms. Our understanding has been wrong. I am not claiming the rank or status typically associated with that title. I am a nobody, a sinner, I'm only a tool, the one with the message to deliver. The message that will rebuild His church. Teaching the same message Jesus taught. A message unknown to us: the fallen ones. Like Jesus, my message testifies to the spirit of prophecy. The audible "WORD" of God. I must remind you: millions of people hear voices that have no form. It's not just in our heads. Well, it is in our heads, but it's real—prophets! Revelation 19:10 For the witnessing of Jesus is the spirit of prophecy. WYC 1382 The first time I had ever heard the word Illuminati was from an invisible voice. And when I Googled it, I argued with THEM because what I read online was not what I was experiencing. THEY told me I was the Queen of the Illuminati, and that I was married to Jesus. I argued with THEM that it wasn't true, because I knew the bible. These "many" voices of the Illuminati, drove me crazy, THEY made me a lunatic. So, I began in Matthew 17, the story of the lunatic boy whose father came to Jesus to heal him due to his disciples not being able to do so. (Matthew 17:14-18) When I went through my experience, I was a lunatic. I have lived a predestined life of SIN, in order to see something deeper, this TRUTH. Jesus too gained insight from His SIN. - If you are a Christan, I know that offends you to the point of defense for your Messiah, stay with me please, give me the opportunity to explain. I have a message to give you. I too made it through psychosis without murdering myself or another. Let's not forget Jesus was told to commit suicide as well by an invisible voice. "THROW YOURSELF DOWN." (Matthew 4:6) Stay with me, okay! The Significance of "Seized" in a Changed Bible: So, beginning with Matthew 17, and Mark 9 I will use two different translations so that you can see why we have not been able to see the truth. The bible has been changed to give us a completely different understanding. I prove this over and over again throughout my work. These two stories are the same stories. I need you to PAY ATTENTION to the word SEIZED, it's very important that you do. Matthew 17:15 Lord, have mercy on my son,” he said. “He has seizures and is suffering greatly. He often falls into the fire or into the water. NIV 2011 This verse is telling us that the boy was having a seizure, and is confirmed in the 1982 NKJV as epilepsy. Matthew 17:15 Lord, have mercy on my son, for he is an epileptic and suffers severely; for he often falls into the fire and often into the water. NKJV 1982 Mark 9:17-18 A man in the crowd answered, ‘Teacher, I brought you my son, who is possessed by a spirit that has robbed him of speech. Whenever it seizes him, it throws him to the ground. He foams at the mouth, gnashes his teeth and becomes rigid. I asked your disciples to drive out the spirit, but they could not.’ NIV 2011 In Mark 9 we see something a little bit different. We see the control the spirit has on the boy, by THROWING him to the ground. This control is seen many times though Jesus' ministry. Each of the three parts to this series has a story of control. In the NIV 2011 translation, because of the account in Matthew 17, we look at Mark 9 and assume that the word "seized" is the same as "seizure," leading us to believe that the boy was having an epileptic seizure. And that is why our churches are teaching that he was. You see our churches are missing the importance of what is really happening inside the minds of mental health patients, leaving them with no hope for proper aid. They cannot come to you Christian, because you don't believe their experience is real. You send then to psychologist and Pharmakeia, only to push them further away from God because they can't trust you. They know their experience is real, but NOBODY BELIEVES THEM. Pharmakeia is a form of the Greek root word from which we get our English words: Pharmacy, Pharmacist, and Pharmaceutical. It is mentionede in the New Testament, specifically in Galatians 5:20 and Revelation 18:23-24, where it refers to the blood of the PROPHETS being found in it.". In its biblical context, it is often associated with. 1. Drug Use: The practice of using substances, whether for healing or other purposes. 2. Sorcery and Magic: The term is linked to magical arts and witchcraft, often involving the use of drugs or potions to induce altered states or perform spells. 3. Idolatry: Pharmakeia is sometimes connected with idol worship, suggesting that the use of these substances could be intertwined with religious practices that were considered idolatrous. Let's examine this more closely: The first English translation, WYC 1382, from which the NIV 2011 was derived, describes the boy as a lunatic. It makes no mention of the boy having an epileptic seizure, unlike what we are taught in church today. The NIV 2011 interpretation suggests that the demon caused a health defect, but it is quite different from the WYC 1382 translation, which describes the boy as a lunatic, indicating a mental health issue rather than a physical ailment like epilepsy. This story is about control, possession, and mental anguish, not a medical condition like epilepsy. A lunatic refers to a condition of the mind, suggesting a mental disturbance, while epilepsy is understood as a neurological disorder with physical symptoms. By equating the two, we obscure the original meaning and misinterpret the true nature of the boy's affliction. This distinction is crucial because it has shifted our understanding to a purely medical condition rather than a matter involving spiritual and mental health. The original text’s use of "lunatic" highlights the broader nature and truth of the boy's affliction—one that is not merely physical but involves the mind and spirit. This perspective is essential for accurately interpreting the biblical account, fully understanding what Jesus actually revealed, and grasping its implications for mental health and spiritual experiences. Matthew 17:15 Lord, have mercy on my son; for he is lunatic, and suffereth evil, for oft times he falleth into the fire, and oft times into the water. WYC 1382 Mark 9:17-18 And one of the company answered, and said, Master, I have brought to thee my son, that hath a dumb spirit; and where ever he taketh him, he hurtleth him down, and he foameth, and beateth together with teeth, and waxeth dry. And I said to thy disciples, that they should cast him out, and they might not. WYC 1382 In the WYC 1382 first English translation we see a boy who is a lunatic, taken by a demon and hurled to the ground. Another way to say it could be: A lunatic boy was seized by the demon, and thrown to the ground. - This is CONTROL. Taken: To take something means to acquire, grab, or receive it, often with the implication that the action is deliberate. Seized: To seize something means to take hold of it suddenly or forcibly, often with the implication of authority or power. It carries a stronger sense of control and can be associated with legal or aggressive actions. Hurled: To hurl something means to throw it with great force or intensity. It implies a more vigorous and often aggressive action compared to simply throwing. Thrown: To throw something means to propel it through the air using one's arm or hand. THIS IS CONTROL LEADING TO MENTAL ILLNESS. But wait there is more. I'm building blocks here and want to make sure that you are aware this demon mentioned here is the "THIS KIND" of Matthew 17:21 and has been completely removed from the NIV 2011 translation. Matthew 17:21 but this kind is not cast out, but by prayer and fasting. WYC 1382 I need you to PAY ATTENTION to the characteristics in the story of the boy: control and self-harm. Remember, the boy was THROWN INTO THE FIRE. So technically, to the average person observing the boy's behavior, someone who lacks an understanding of spiritual experiences might say, "The boy threw himself into the fire." Did he? This situation is very much the same as how Jesus was instructed to throw Himself off the temple. I know this well because I too was instructed to self-harm. Was the boy aggressive, an inmate, or a drug addict? No! Was he self-harming? Yes, he was, the demon self-harmed the boy by throwing him into the fire. - ATTEMPTED MURDER/SUICIDE! MURDER IS SIN! Stay tuned for part two, where we will continue to explore these connections and uncover more about the spiritual battles we face today.
Let's lift up 
Let's lift up @AlexanderYondel's request for protection over his family. May the Lord watch over their sleep tonight.
And a general shoutout for everyone dealing with health issues or needing peace. We're with you! 
Hello everyone, let's gather in prayer! 
