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Dear Jesus, Lord although I pray I seldom see the results from those prayers in ways that I can understand. Sometimes I wish my life was like Joseph's life - that You God would prosper me at whatever I put my hand to, that I would wake up tomorrow or somehow later today and I would have received the answer to my prayers about my future. God, even though my life is filled with mistakes my faith in You isn't a mistake, and I trust that You have a purpose for me - I just wish I was able to get on that track and go.
I come to Your seat Jesus in boldness to ask for these things. All I have in my life is a collection of meaningless things that I've truly failed at. I failed at school, and had to drop out when I was younger - this was my own fault simply for not doing the work or paying attention in class. Then I went to college, and dropped out twice. I put my mind to write music and create something filled with Your Spirit, but there was no audience. I honestly can't say that anything I do is meaningful anymore. I call on You God to right that for me, and make me into a wonderful person with things to give good people.
You can ignore me if You want, God - I have prayed this prayer so many hundreds of times that that seems to be all I've received from You about it. Where its written in the Bible that we call on God, and for His namesake He is answering us - God, this saying in me You have made not entirely true. I call on You Jahweh, but I can never understand Your answers if You answer me at all. I ask for direction - but I receive a feeling of being more 'lost' than I felt prior to coming to You in prayer, Jesus.
Jesus said that God loves to give His children good things, and that whatever we ask for in prayer He is going to give us. Where are the answers to my prayers, then? I don't mean to be disrespectful, or rude, or selfish - I am just tired and hollowed out. My life has no 'fruit' - I don't put forth a bounty to You anymore because You have made my soul a desert, and my life is a shame for everyone who comes to know me.
I don't have 'friends' either. I have a future husband, and he is my best friend - but I don't have anyone else who cares for me in the world.
God, what prayer do I have to pray that is the prayer You are going to answer? Teach me what to pray, Jesus, so that my soul can have peace in the comfort of the Father. This silence has gone on too long - show me the way, God, because I am prepared to testify to the works You work in me and I want to give You praise.
God, You swore that I would receive from Jesus what I ask when You spoke in Isaiah and said that no one would believe on Your Son in vain. These hundreds of prayers are vanity if You don't answer them - and it is like a slap in the face, over and over - and I am bruised over and swollen.
I didn't have a good biological father, Lord Jesus, so I took God as a father to my heart and soul. My biological father loved to abuse me, and hit me when I was very young.
All these unanswered prayers 'feel' like being beaten felt. Fathers are supposed to care about their children, not ignore them or abuse them - even when they make mistakes.
I pray that You Jesus will change my life for the better. I pray that tomorrow is the beginning of that change - that there will be some little light that shows me the way to true joy. Are there any angels You can send? Is there anyone in heaven that will minister to me? Should I stop praying and give up?
Jesus, all my worries and cares and burdens of this life I cast on You. I am waiting on You, God, and if I wait for the rest of my life for Your answer and You don't give me one, then forgive me the frustration and the emptiness that will seep out of me until You put me in my grave. In Jesus Christ's name I am praying that You hear this prayer, God. Amen.
I come to Your seat Jesus in boldness to ask for these things. All I have in my life is a collection of meaningless things that I've truly failed at. I failed at school, and had to drop out when I was younger - this was my own fault simply for not doing the work or paying attention in class. Then I went to college, and dropped out twice. I put my mind to write music and create something filled with Your Spirit, but there was no audience. I honestly can't say that anything I do is meaningful anymore. I call on You God to right that for me, and make me into a wonderful person with things to give good people.
You can ignore me if You want, God - I have prayed this prayer so many hundreds of times that that seems to be all I've received from You about it. Where its written in the Bible that we call on God, and for His namesake He is answering us - God, this saying in me You have made not entirely true. I call on You Jahweh, but I can never understand Your answers if You answer me at all. I ask for direction - but I receive a feeling of being more 'lost' than I felt prior to coming to You in prayer, Jesus.
Jesus said that God loves to give His children good things, and that whatever we ask for in prayer He is going to give us. Where are the answers to my prayers, then? I don't mean to be disrespectful, or rude, or selfish - I am just tired and hollowed out. My life has no 'fruit' - I don't put forth a bounty to You anymore because You have made my soul a desert, and my life is a shame for everyone who comes to know me.
I don't have 'friends' either. I have a future husband, and he is my best friend - but I don't have anyone else who cares for me in the world.
God, what prayer do I have to pray that is the prayer You are going to answer? Teach me what to pray, Jesus, so that my soul can have peace in the comfort of the Father. This silence has gone on too long - show me the way, God, because I am prepared to testify to the works You work in me and I want to give You praise.
God, You swore that I would receive from Jesus what I ask when You spoke in Isaiah and said that no one would believe on Your Son in vain. These hundreds of prayers are vanity if You don't answer them - and it is like a slap in the face, over and over - and I am bruised over and swollen.
I didn't have a good biological father, Lord Jesus, so I took God as a father to my heart and soul. My biological father loved to abuse me, and hit me when I was very young.
All these unanswered prayers 'feel' like being beaten felt. Fathers are supposed to care about their children, not ignore them or abuse them - even when they make mistakes.
I pray that You Jesus will change my life for the better. I pray that tomorrow is the beginning of that change - that there will be some little light that shows me the way to true joy. Are there any angels You can send? Is there anyone in heaven that will minister to me? Should I stop praying and give up?
Jesus, all my worries and cares and burdens of this life I cast on You. I am waiting on You, God, and if I wait for the rest of my life for Your answer and You don't give me one, then forgive me the frustration and the emptiness that will seep out of me until You put me in my grave. In Jesus Christ's name I am praying that You hear this prayer, God. Amen.