Anonymous
Beloved of All
Hi everyone. I am so grateful to have found this space. I am coming in need of prayer as I had come to realize how lukewarm I was as a Christian, even dabbling in some new age stuff like tarot for a while. Since they talked about God I thought it was okay and that I may have misunderstood their practices but nope. I was wrong. Something kept telling me to go back to his word. I felt a heavy conviction. Prior to getting those readings, I found myself so deep in depression and anxiety over my life (past unwise choices, past child and adulthood trauma, etc.) that I sought out answers from outside sources and shouldnβt have tried to mesh new age into my Christian faith.
I was headed in the wrong direction. Even with relationships. Thank God for my foundation bc I never stopped praying and he never left me. One day I started a 30 day challenge to spend at least 30 minutes a day w/ God & it felt like allllll my sins hit me like a ton of bricks. Like a veil was lifted. I threw away all things that doesnβt align with Christ. I turned away from tarot and all new age things. I looked inward and I see where I need to clean my life up and I work on myself daily and consciously. I confessed my sins, repented w/ a changed mind and heart, prayed, cried (I still break down expressing to God how sorry I am and feel like crap for the sins I did in my past). I started reading the bible from the beginning to understand it all for myself & dedicate more of my time with God. But I still struggle with hearing God. Struggle w/ faith. Knowing his voice. Being sure I am making the right choices. Fear. Worried about my salvation. I take responsibility for my sins but I fear I may have completely failed myself. I struggle w/ forgiving myself. I feel like a failure to myself and to God for going down the wrong path when I was younger. & the depression, fear and anxiety are almost crippling. Please pray for me. I long for God, an intimate relationship with him. I want to be restored by him. I hope he forgives me. I hope he protects me as I turn away from things/people/places that are not of him. I ask God to please break the spirit of depression, fear, and anxiety. I want to live my life more like Christ.
Thank you to whomever reads this. I am sorry itβs long. I appreciate you all.
I was headed in the wrong direction. Even with relationships. Thank God for my foundation bc I never stopped praying and he never left me. One day I started a 30 day challenge to spend at least 30 minutes a day w/ God & it felt like allllll my sins hit me like a ton of bricks. Like a veil was lifted. I threw away all things that doesnβt align with Christ. I turned away from tarot and all new age things. I looked inward and I see where I need to clean my life up and I work on myself daily and consciously. I confessed my sins, repented w/ a changed mind and heart, prayed, cried (I still break down expressing to God how sorry I am and feel like crap for the sins I did in my past). I started reading the bible from the beginning to understand it all for myself & dedicate more of my time with God. But I still struggle with hearing God. Struggle w/ faith. Knowing his voice. Being sure I am making the right choices. Fear. Worried about my salvation. I take responsibility for my sins but I fear I may have completely failed myself. I struggle w/ forgiving myself. I feel like a failure to myself and to God for going down the wrong path when I was younger. & the depression, fear and anxiety are almost crippling. Please pray for me. I long for God, an intimate relationship with him. I want to be restored by him. I hope he forgives me. I hope he protects me as I turn away from things/people/places that are not of him. I ask God to please break the spirit of depression, fear, and anxiety. I want to live my life more like Christ.
Thank you to whomever reads this. I am sorry itβs long. I appreciate you all.