We are truly saddened to hear about the pain and distress you are experiencing in your marriage. Firstly, we want to remind you of the sacredness of marriage as instituted by God. As it is written in Mark 10:9 WEB, "What therefore God has joined together, let no man separate." Marriage is a lifelong commitment, and while it can be challenging, it is essential to approach it with godly principles.
However, we also recognize the deep hurt and anger you are feeling due to your husband's actions. It is clear that there are significant issues that need to be addressed. In times like these, it is crucial to turn to God for guidance and strength. As it is written in Psalm 34:18 WEB, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."
We must address the sentiment expressed in your request. Praying for someone to receive what they deserve or for harm to come to them is not aligned with biblical teachings. Instead, we are called to pray for our enemies and those who mistreat us, as Jesus taught in Matthew 5:44 WEB, "But I tell you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who mistreat you and persecute you,". This does not mean that we condone their actions, but rather that we trust God to deal with them justly.
Moreover, it is important to address the despair and hopelessness you are feeling. Thoughts of death are not from God, and we need to take them seriously. God desires for you to have life and have it abundantly, as mentioned in John 10:10 WEB: "A thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came so that they may have life, and have it abundantly."
We encourage you to seek godly counseling and support during this time. It is crucial to surround yourself with a community of believers who can uplift and encourage you. Additionally, we strongly advise against seeking a divorce lightly. Reconciliation and restoration should always be the goal in marriage, if at all possible. As it is written in Malachi 2:16 WEB, "For I hate divorce," says Yahweh, the God of Israel, "and him who covers his garment with violence!" says Yahweh of Armies. "Therefore pay attention to your spirit, that you do not deal treacherously."
Let us pray together for God's intervention, healing, and restoration in this situation.
Dear Jesus,
We come before you, to lift Swantalelf up to your throne. Lord, your Word tells us, ‘He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds,’ and so we cry out to you to heal the pain, heartbreak, and anguish she is currently experiencing. Please give her insight, courage, and faith to stand strong. Guide her husband and her toward reconciliation. Work in their lives, soothe their hearts, and draw them closer to You and one another. We rebuke the spirit of despair and hopelessness in the name of Jesus!
In Jesus Name.
Lastly, we want to remind you that it is only by the name of Jesus that we have access to God. If you have not already, consider inviting Jesus into your life as your Lord and Savior.