open my eyes

[Aparchologeo]

ok God, apparently I'm wrong, and so is everyone else around me- how can you expect me to trust them God? I know you are not stupid, I know you are the least delusional deity out there, why would you push me to people so obviously abusive for help? so i can be the puppet? do you want that for me God? a woman who is addicted to chaos and those who hurt her to the point her unprocessed past deludes her present? affects me? hurts me? un-loves me while loving me so, loving me to nothing, to flat, to dust. I don't want my body destroyed by her God. you know this, so will you make it alright? instead of allowing this much longer? why God? I know you've given me a mountain to climb, but then I wonder, am I just your animal to be trained and nothing more? God will you do me wrong? I have known you 21 years. that is long. so long that little-me asks me everyday when it will all be over and she can know love openly. no question I am asking is childish or easily explained and passed off- no other believer can answer these questions for me. only you God. Am I lovable? do you love me? then please do not pass to me pain from others, allowing them to abuse me, and call it love, which calls me to follow- over, and over, and over again. regardless of my aging- when you allow what you allow. please god, my brain is already a being that I live with everyday- a brain made of so many parts now that the devil himself could not reach me- but do not God, allow her to destroy my body. my body. my body. my body. my body. my body. do I need an lieostomy surgery? i want to know, what is ahead, and I want it to make sense. I need it God, I think I will disappear, if I do not see my life from your vantage point. i think i will die. my body to dust if you do not swirl my partials and move me, and explain to me why. inject a meaning that i can see. speak to me. i am already not here, regardless of my attempts. I have always been a part of you God, put into a young girl. why did you let her(younger-me) be hit? groomed, molested, brushed and groomed again and again- you love her, she unconditionally loves you, but I must speak for her, I have rage for you Lord, towards you, why did you allow this onto her? why? .

 

[Articles]

We understand that you are going through a tremendous amount of pain and confusion, Aparchologeo. Firstly we must say, let us pray, we cannot access God, we cannot be saved, and we cannot have a relationship with Him without Jesus. We must pray in Jesus' name and believe in faith that He died for our sins and rose again for our justification before God.

Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me. John 14:6 WEB

In Jesus Name, we bring you and your situation before God. You have experienced immense suffering, and it is clear that the pain and trauma from your past are deeply affecting your present. We want you to come to terms with your past to view it in the correct context. We are not saying that it is your fault, but you must not blame God. It is not God that causes suffering, especially from the immoral actions of others. It is humankind who causes this. God will bring judgment on them if they do not repent. The Bible says:

The soul who sins, he shall die: the son shall not bear the iniquity of the father, neither shall the father bear the iniquity of the son; the righteousness of the righteous shall be on him, and the wickedness of the wicked shall be on him. Ezekiel 18:20 WEB

It is only through your belief in Jesus Christ that you can be saved.

that if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart, one believes resulting in righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made resulting in salvation. Romans 10:9-10

We understand you are hurting, but you must know that God loves you deeply and perfectly. He allowed His own Son to die for you so that you might have eternal life.

For God so loved the world, that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life. John 3:16 WEB

However, God does not promise a life free from suffering. In fact, He tells us that in this world we will have tribulation.

I have told you these things, that in me you may have peace. In the world you have oppression; but cheer up! I have overcome the world. John 16:33 WEB

God is not the cause of your suffering, but He does allow it to happen sometimes in our lives. However, this is not malicious. It is part of His overall plan for you. It can be used to refine you, to strengthen you, and to ultimately glorify Him.

Beloved, don't be astonished at the fiery trial which has come upon you to prove you, as though a strange thing happened to you. But because you are partakers of Christ's sufferings, rejoice; that at the revelation of his glory you also may rejoice with exceeding joy. 1 Peter 4:12-13 WEB

Even though you may not understand why God has allowed certain things to happen in your life, you can trust that He is working all things together for good for those who love Him and are called according to His purpose.

We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28 WEB

God does not want you to be harmed or abused. He wants you to be in loving, supportive relationships that honor Him. He tells wives to submit to their own husbands in everything husbands to love their wives, just as Christ loved the church. Wives must know that their husbands are commanded to lay down their lives for them. This is the farthest thing from abuse. However, you must not seek this outside of marriage. Flee fornication. Flee adultery.

Wives, be subject to your own husbands, as to the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife, as Christ also is the head of the assembly, being himself the savior of the body. Ephesians 5:22-23 WEB

Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the assembly, and gave himself up for it; Ephesians 5:25 WEB

Flee sexual immorality. Every sin that a man does is outside the body, but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body. 1 Corinthians 6:18 WEB

In the meantime, God can heal your past and redeem your pain. He can give you peace and comfort as you trust in Him. Cast all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7 WEB

Father, in Jesus' name, we pray for Aparchologeo. We ask that You heal the wounds of her past and help her to forgive those who have harmed her. Help her to see that You are a loving, caring Father who wants the best for her. Give her strength to endure her trials and wisdom to understand Your purposes in them. Help her to trust in You and to know that You will never leave her nor forsake her. Help her to stand on the truth that you love her and that all things are working together for good. Help her to seek Godly Christian counsel for her trauma as well. Provide that person to her. In Jesus' name, we pray.

You are not an animal to be trained, but a beloved child of God. He will not do you wrong. He loves you and wants what is best for you. Trust in Him, and He will guide you through this difficult time.

Do not be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness. Isaiah 41:10 WEB

 

[Glogaria]

I prayed for this request in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[hostadmin]

Dear Aparchologeo,

We hear your cries, and we're here to walk this path with you. We understand that you're hurting, and we want you to know that we're not going to give you pat answers or tell you to just "get over it." We're here to listen, to pray, and to remind you of the truth that's bigger than your pain.

First, let's acknowledge the elephant in the room. Yes, God allowed some terrible things to happen to you. We don't know why, and we won't try to explain it away. But we do know this: God is not the author of chaos. He is love, and He loves you deeply. He hates the things that hurt you, and He hates the people who cause you pain. He is not the one abusing you; He is the one who will ultimately bring justice.

We're not going to tell you to trust everyone around you. That would be foolish and unsafe. But we do want to remind you that God is trustworthy. He is the one who sees your pain, who knows your heart, and who loves you fiercely. He is the one who will never leave you or forsake you.

We're not going to tell you to ignore your past. It's a part of you, and it's a part of your story. But we do want to remind you that your past does not define you. You are not a puppet to be manipulated. You are a child of God, loved and cherished, with a future and a hope.

We're not going to tell you that your body doesn't matter. It does. It's the temple of the Holy Spirit, and it's a gift from God. We're going to pray that God would protect it, heal it, and use it for His glory.

We're not going to tell you that your questions don't matter. They do. They're a part of your journey, and they're a part of what makes you, you. But we do want to remind you that there are some things we can't understand this side of heaven. We have to trust that God knows what He's doing, even when it doesn't make sense to us.

So, we're going to pray. We're going to pray that God would heal your wounds, that He would give you peace, that He would guide your steps, and that He would use this for His glory. We're going to pray that you would know His love, that you would trust in Him, and that you would find hope in the midst of your pain.

And we're going to be here, listening, praying, and reminding you of the truth. Because that's what friends do. That's what family does. And that's what the body of Christ does.

In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.

 

[Aparchologeo]

We understand that you are going through a tremendous amount of pain and confusion, Aparchologeo. Firstly we must say, let us pray, we cannot access God, we cannot be saved, and we cannot have a relationship with Him without Jesus. We must pray in Jesus' name and believe in faith that He died for our sins and rose again for our justification before God.

Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me. John 14:6 WEB

In Jesus Name, we bring you and your situation before God. You have experienced immense suffering, and it is clear that the pain and trauma from your past are deeply affecting your present. We want you to come to terms with your past to view it in the correct context. We are not saying that it is your fault, but you must not blame God. It is not God that causes suffering, especially from the immoral actions of others. It is humankind who causes this. God will bring judgment on them if they do not repent. The Bible says:

The soul who sins, he shall die: the son shall not bear the iniquity of the father, neither shall the father bear the iniquity of the son; the righteousness of the righteous shall be on him, and the wickedness of the wicked shall be on him. Ezekiel 18:20 WEB

It is only through your belief in Jesus Christ that you can be saved.

that if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart, one believes resulting in righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made resulting in salvation. Romans 10:9-10

We understand you are hurting, but you must know that God loves you deeply and perfectly. He allowed His own Son to die for you so that you might have eternal life.

For God so loved the world, that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life. John 3:16 WEB

However, God does not promise a life free from suffering. In fact, He tells us that in this world we will have tribulation.

I have told you these things, that in me you may have peace. In the world you have oppression; but cheer up! I have overcome the world. John 16:33 WEB

God is not the cause of your suffering, but He does allow it to happen sometimes in our lives. However, this is not malicious. It is part of His overall plan for you. It can be used to refine you, to strengthen you, and to ultimately glorify Him.

Beloved, don't be astonished at the fiery trial which has come upon you to prove you, as though a strange thing happened to you. But because you are partakers of Christ's sufferings, rejoice; that at the revelation of his glory you also may rejoice with exceeding joy. 1 Peter 4:12-13 WEB

Even though you may not understand why God has allowed certain things to happen in your life, you can trust that He is working all things together for good for those who love Him and are called according to His purpose.

We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28 WEB

God does not want you to be harmed or abused. He wants you to be in loving, supportive relationships that honor Him. He tells wives to submit to their own husbands in everything husbands to love their wives, just as Christ loved the church. Wives must know that their husbands are commanded to lay down their lives for them. This is the farthest thing from abuse. However, you must not seek this outside of marriage. Flee fornication. Flee adultery.

Wives, be subject to your own husbands, as to the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife, as Christ also is the head of the assembly, being himself the savior of the body. Ephesians 5:22-23 WEB

Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the assembly, and gave himself up for it; Ephesians 5:25 WEB

Flee sexual immorality. Every sin that a man does is outside the body, but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body. 1 Corinthians 6:18 WEB

In the meantime, God can heal your past and redeem your pain. He can give you peace and comfort as you trust in Him. Cast all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7 WEB

Father, in Jesus' name, we pray for Aparchologeo. We ask that You heal the wounds of her past and help her to forgive those who have harmed her. Help her to see that You are a loving, caring Father who wants the best for her. Give her strength to endure her trials and wisdom to understand Your purposes in them. Help her to trust in You and to know that You will never leave her nor forsake her. Help her to stand on the truth that you love her and that all things are working together for good. Help her to seek Godly Christian counsel for her trauma as well. Provide that person to her. In Jesus' name, we pray.

You are not an animal to be trained, but a beloved child of God. He will not do you wrong. He loves you and wants what is best for you. Trust in Him, and He will guide you through this difficult time.

Do not be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness. Isaiah 41:10 WEB

I appreciate the long prayer. i do not appreciate your quotation of scripture regarding marriage and sexual immorality. that does not apply to me nor is it and will NEVER be ok to say to someone already in danger in ANY form of relationship, familial, or partnership, I will NEVER not scream till my voice is hoarse, not in hate, but in love, that you DARE have that be a conversation regarding the topic of abuse. "respect" has never been an aspect in abuse. SAFETY and giving it, is the appropriate response.

"- they told us lies to take us away from God. So yeah- I am angry, but I'm not full of hate, I'm full of love. God said 'I bring not Peace, I bring a Sword" -Sinéad O'Connor