Azuirenwell
Disciple of Prayer
I’m currently struggling with forgiving myself for a mistake I’ve made on my older sister. We had got into a minor argument and it led to her teeth coming completely out. I picked up her phone and threw it. The throw I made was not for her but for the wall but unfortunately by me throwing it, it landed at her mouth and the damage happened. I’ve not been the same since, but of course I’ve been praying and praying and PRAYING for this guilt to go away. Right now I’m looking at $### to pay for the broken tooth she has. I have another older sister that came through and paid $### for step 1 of the process. The only bad thing about her paying a portion is that she’s not a person that truly does it from the heart. It’s like I or my sister (the one who tooth came out) have to say yes to everything she asks us to do or else she’s constantly brings up “but I paid for a portion of ur teeth” or “make sure someone else is there for your next visit”. It’s truly frustrating and brings me back to the day all over again because this could of literally been prevented. And it’s like I really do ask God for an angel/miracle to find me or my sister to help pay off for her tooth/to pay my other sister back for the $### she paid. Nobody wants to keep hearing in their ear “but I did this or that” it’s truly annoying. I recently lost my serving job that was helping me to save to pay her tooth off. But, now prayer and God is what I run to. I’m really trying to better my financial problems, life, mental health, and college while just being 18 almost 19 years old. Crying and overthinking daily is all I do. Man it’s hard but I try to be as positive as I can be in this time frame. I can go on and on about my life problems but a prayer from you guys for a miracle in my life and a job to hire me would be greatly appreciated! Thank you again for letting me vent to you and for your prayers. I truly need them
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