Elizabeth F
Humble Servant of All
I am SO frightened!!!
I have serious mental health issues which haven't yet been diagnosed but am seeing a psychiatrist on Wednesday.
As I wrote earlier on the 3rd December I have to go to a hospital , about 200 miles away, to have a biliary stent removed and I am so frightened as I will be by myself and find it difficult to deal with strangers and outside stimulus.
Also I am in the most unbearable pain due to Fibromyalgia and Osteoporosis but it is the mental health issues which are scaring me.
To give you an example I was trying to have my dinner in peace tonight but my mind was bringing up lots of people etc and forcing me to remember them when suddenly the face of a woman (a local person from my past)just appeared in my head making my heart thump so loud and she won't go away until I find out who she is. It's like someone bursting into your room and shouting "Who am I? And I am not going away until you tell me"!!!
This happens every second almost 24/7 and I am exhausted!
I have to confess I am feeling suicidal as can't go on in a living hell!! I am exhausted
PLEASE Jesus speak peace and healing into my mind and speak into my body. I can't go on like this and am so frightened.I need you Jesus. Please don't turn me away. Please help me that I may glorify God . In your name I ask this. Amen
I have serious mental health issues which haven't yet been diagnosed but am seeing a psychiatrist on Wednesday.
As I wrote earlier on the 3rd December I have to go to a hospital , about 200 miles away, to have a biliary stent removed and I am so frightened as I will be by myself and find it difficult to deal with strangers and outside stimulus.
Also I am in the most unbearable pain due to Fibromyalgia and Osteoporosis but it is the mental health issues which are scaring me.
To give you an example I was trying to have my dinner in peace tonight but my mind was bringing up lots of people etc and forcing me to remember them when suddenly the face of a woman (a local person from my past)just appeared in my head making my heart thump so loud and she won't go away until I find out who she is. It's like someone bursting into your room and shouting "Who am I? And I am not going away until you tell me"!!!
This happens every second almost 24/7 and I am exhausted!
I have to confess I am feeling suicidal as can't go on in a living hell!! I am exhausted
PLEASE Jesus speak peace and healing into my mind and speak into my body. I can't go on like this and am so frightened.I need you Jesus. Please don't turn me away. Please help me that I may glorify God . In your name I ask this. Amen