Baswal
Faithful Servant
Oh Abba, I have questioned your reasoning. You have gathered me together with my wife and family at home because you want to save my life from being infected with coronavirus. They don't want to be left alone without a father or husband. However, I have to ignore all calls, emails, voicemail and texts on my smartphone regarding any new job opportunity coming forward for no matter how long it takes to save my own life because I don't know what is really happening. It could flare up big time within two weeks as this pestilence is right on our doorstep. THIS IS LIFE OR DEATH! I am just treated as a number and the politicians, recruitment consultants and employers in the UK simply don't care or give a toss about the 'little man'. They aren't bothered. They say just get on as normal. What is wrong with them all? Why can't they just shut down the UK down as in lockdown everywhere even if it means having nothing or doing nothing just to preserve our lives? Are they not taking this seriously? This is REALLY MADNESS! I want to take this seriously by avoiding going out unless I really have to but I also need a job once this pestilence has gone as I can't rely on Universal Credit for joblessness after the event has passed. I am at a real dilemma in my life at a very critical juncture as i have to put literally EVERYTHING ON HOLD. That means not going out to any job interviews at all even if I am invited to go. What can I do, Abba? What can I do? What do I say? What can I say? How do I communicate this? Do you have any answers how I can get around this for the time being? Is there a plan after the event has passed? Will I get back on my feet? My mind is literally torn to shreds between two priorities. This matter is simply not going away. Every day, I am faced with the same dilemma. Part of me wants to obey the health warning and stay put but part of me says that a man who can't provide for his wife and family when he has the capability to do so is a FAILURE. What kind of failure is there in your vocabulary, Abba? My wife and family are simply not convinced about my reasoning with them. Are they right and I am wrong? This is a very tough call. I can't go on like this! This is not normal thinking. I leave my personal dilemma right now at your feet to resolve SUPERNATURALLY within the spiritual world as a message of hope at the end of this dark tunnel going forward in the name of your son, Yahshua and of Ruach Ha'Kodesh. Amen!