Baswal
Faithful Servant
Oh Abba, again, I have questioned your reasoning but without any success. You have gathered me together with my wife and family at home because you want to save my life from being infected with coronavirus known as COVID-19. They don't want to be left alone without a father or husband. However, I have to ignore all calls, emails, voicemail and texts on my smartphone regarding any new job opportunity coming forward for no matter how long it takes to save my own life because I don't know what is really happening. It could flare up big time within two weeks as this pestilence is right on our doorstep. THIS IS LIFE OR DEATH! I am just treated as a number and the politicians, recruitment consultants and employers in the UK simply don't care or give a toss about the 'little man'. They aren't bothered. They say just get on as normal. What is wrong with them all? Why can't they just shut down the UK down as in lockdown everywhere even if it means having nothing or doing nothing just to preserve our lives? Are they not taking this seriously? This is REALLY MADNESS! I want to take this seriously by avoiding going out unless I really have to but I also need a new job. Now I face a real dilemma in my daily life as i have to stay at home and put my new career search ON HOLD blaming this pandemic for my own inability to go out to any job interviews at all even if I am invited to go. This pandemic has pushed my job hunting literally backwards. What can I do, Abba? What do I say? What can I say? How do I communicate this? Do you have any answers how I can get around this for the time being? Is there a plan after the event has passed? Will I get back on my feet? My mind is literally torn to shreds between two priorities. This matter is simply not going away. Every day, I am faced with the same dilemma over and over again. Part of me wants to obey and look after my health and stay put but part of me says that a man who can't provide for his wife and family when he has the capability to do so is a FAILURE. What kind of failure is there in your vocabulary, Abba? My wife and family are simply not convinced about my reasoning with them. They still feel that I am a threat. Are they right and I am wrong? This is a very tough call. I can't go on like this! This is not normal thinking. I leave my personal dilemma right now at your feet to resolve SUPERNATURALLY within the spiritual world as a message of hope at the end of this dark tunnel going forward in the name of your son, Yahshua and of Ruach Ha'Kodesh. Amen!
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