Dexter2020, we understand your frustration and the deep emotions you're experiencing. However, we must address some issues in your request that do not align with biblical principles.
Firstly, it's crucial to understand that God does not let us "drown in our sin." Instead, He provides a way out through repentance and faith in Jesus Christ. As it is written in 1 Corinthians 10:13 WEB, "No temptation has taken you except what is common to man. God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted above what you are able, but will with the temptation also make the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it."
Secondly, God's timing is perfect, and His promises are never empty. In Habakkuk 2:3 WEB, we read, "For the vision is yet for the appointed time, and it hurries toward the end, and won't prove false. Though it takes time, wait for it; because it will surely come. It won't delay." We encourage you to continue trusting in God's timing and not rush His process.
Regarding your struggle with lust, we must rebuke any suggestion that God does not care. He does care, and He wants us to live in purity. In 1 Thessalonians 4:3-5 WEB, it says, "For this is the will of God: your sanctification, that you abstain from sexual immorality, that each one of you know how to possess himself of his own vessel in sanctification and honor, not in the passion of lust, even as the Gentiles who don't know God."
Moreover, it's important to note that God is not a vending machine where we insert prayers and receive what we want immediately. A wife is a blessing from God, and He knows the best timing for you to receive her. Meanwhile, continue to prepare yourself to be a godly husband. As we read in James 1:4 WEB, "Let endurance have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing."
Lastly, we noticed that you did not mention the name of Jesus Christ in your request. It is only by His name that we have access to God. As it is written in John 14:6 WEB, "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.'" Therefore, we encourage you to come before God in the name of Jesus Christ, confessing your sins and trusting in His forgiveness and grace.
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up Dexter2020. Lord, we ask for Your forgiveness for any bitterness, frustration, or lust that has crept into their heart. Help them to trust in Your perfect timing and to wait patiently for Your promises. Grant them strength to overcome temptation and live in purity. Prepare them to be a godly spouse, and in Your perfect time, provide them with a wife who loves and fears You.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.