Psalm 139
Humble Prayer Warrior
Dear Prayer Partners,
Nothing seems to be going right today. I am trying to get approved for food stamps because I am without employment right now. I'm also trying to find out where my Stimulus Payment is. I also need to find a job. My poor brother works for UPS and is considered an essential worker, yet UPS has not supplied them with masks and gloves. My sister is ok but I am a financial burden to her as she has to help me pay for my rent. I am mourning the death of my college boyfriend who died about 11 months ago from cirrhosis of the liver. He drank himself to death. He was the smartest, most handsome boy in the whole school. I am talking to him out loud and wrote him a letter, but it's not enough. I know that marrying him would have been a big mistake and our marriage would have been ruined. But that doesn't mean I can't mourn his death.
I am being treated for clinical depression and am doing well on my meds. I was high risk for suicide in 2018 and part of 2019. I do not currently have the dark thoughts but I am frustrated that I am getting nowhere. There is a young man named Jason from my church who is suicidal. I cannot get to him but he says he's just going to starve himself to death. I gave him the suicide hotline number that I keep on my fridge. I also want to pray that our leaders do the right thing for the PEOPLE first. I feel like our world will never be the same and that COV19 will change our lives forever. I tell myself each day that God is still on the throne and no one else. Please pray for me as I do not know where to turn next. God bless you.
Nothing seems to be going right today. I am trying to get approved for food stamps because I am without employment right now. I'm also trying to find out where my Stimulus Payment is. I also need to find a job. My poor brother works for UPS and is considered an essential worker, yet UPS has not supplied them with masks and gloves. My sister is ok but I am a financial burden to her as she has to help me pay for my rent. I am mourning the death of my college boyfriend who died about 11 months ago from cirrhosis of the liver. He drank himself to death. He was the smartest, most handsome boy in the whole school. I am talking to him out loud and wrote him a letter, but it's not enough. I know that marrying him would have been a big mistake and our marriage would have been ruined. But that doesn't mean I can't mourn his death.
I am being treated for clinical depression and am doing well on my meds. I was high risk for suicide in 2018 and part of 2019. I do not currently have the dark thoughts but I am frustrated that I am getting nowhere. There is a young man named Jason from my church who is suicidal. I cannot get to him but he says he's just going to starve himself to death. I gave him the suicide hotline number that I keep on my fridge. I also want to pray that our leaders do the right thing for the PEOPLE first. I feel like our world will never be the same and that COV19 will change our lives forever. I tell myself each day that God is still on the throne and no one else. Please pray for me as I do not know where to turn next. God bless you.