Not feeling the presence of God/ Holy Spirit

[Kiucyn]

I was saved at age 16 through the wrong fear of God through the fear of the end times movie they showed us at the tent meeting. I was raised going to a legalistic Southern Baptist church. Learned about please and earning Gods love through works righteousness. Age 22 I started going to an Evangelical church and watching people raising there hand, getting slain in the spirit, and I was jealous of the closness of the spirit they were experiencing. They really loved God and were not inhibited by expressing the unconditional love of God. I am now 54 and God has brought me through seasons of breaking legalistic judgmental thinking /acting in works righteousness off me. I have also went through long term trauma, 20 years narcissistic abuse divorced 2016, then my intellectual disabled son was verbal abuse and physically destructive when someone hurt him, he would punch holes and doors and walls and lots more destruction. My son was never physically violent to me or my younger daughter. The police would say untill there is blood on the floor we can't help you. That day happened 10 15 20 he was placed in a facility. Most of my marriage when my ex husband would yell at me and what I went through with my son I would go into a trauma response called numbing. Ever since my son was taken away I haven't felt the presence of God like I used too. I have fasted and prayed for a five years now begging to be in His presence I know Jesus is in me, but I don't since His leading anymore, and I've never been able to speak in tongues. What is the name of the wall keeping me from understanding the Holy Spirit and sensing God's presence? I am struggling with oppression, depression, cPTSD, disassociated amnesia ( I can't remember my childhood or most my adult life) crisis fatigue( I sleep every in two hours cycles, then exhausted all day, My daughter moved in with her narcissistic boyfriends family on mother's day three yrs. ago. I don't see her and we were very close. I see my son once to twice a month. I am alone. I spend time with God most everyday lots of the time I'm crying. Any discernment? Thank you for any help.

 

[Articles]

We understand your distress, Kiucyn, and we want you to know that you are not alone. Let's come together in prayer and seek God's will for your life.

You've experienced a lot of trauma, from narcissistic abuse to the heartbreaking situation with your son. It's understandable that these experiences have taken a toll on your spiritual life. But remember, God is faithful. As it is written in 2 Timothy 2:13 (WEB), "If we are faithless, he remains faithful; for he can't deny himself."

You mentioned that you haven't felt God's presence as before and struggle to sense the Holy Spirit's leading. We want to encourage you with Ephesians 2:8-9 (WEB), "for by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, that no one would boast." God's love and presence are not earned through works but received by faith.

Regarding the feeling of numbness and disassociated amnesia, we pray for God's healing over your mind and emotions. Isaiah 61:1 (WEB) says, "The Lord Yahweh's Spirit is on me; because Yahweh has anointed me... he has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted."

Let's address the concern about not feeling the presence of God. Remember, feelings can be deceiving, but God's Word is true. Even when we don't feel His presence, He is with us, as promised in Hebrews 13:5 (WEB), "For he has said, 'I will in no way leave you, neither will I in any way forsake you.'"

We notice that you didn't mention the name of Jesus in your request. It's important to remember that it is through Jesus that we have access to God. Acts 4:12 (WEB) states, "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"

Let's pray:

Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up Kiucyn. Thank You, Lord, for her faith and her desire to feel Your presence. We pray against the spirits of oppression, depression, and trauma that have been afflicting her. We ask for Your healing power to manifest in her life, in her mind, and in her memories. Help her to sense Your leading and to experience the fullness of the Holy Spirit. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.

We encourage you, Kiucyn, to keep seeking God, even when you don't feel His presence. Continue to cry out to Him, and trust that He hears you. Keep your eyes fixed on Jesus, and remember that He loves you more than you can imagine.

 

[hostadmin]

We're here with you, Kiucyn. We understand your struggle to feel God's presence and the Holy Spirit's leading. It's like you're in a spiritual desert, longing for the refreshing rain of God's closeness. We've been there too, and we know it's a tough place to be.

We want to remind you of something Paul wrote in Romans 8:16 (WEB), "The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are children of God." Even when we can't feel God's presence, the Holy Spirit is there, testifying to our spirit that we are indeed God's children.

Let's not forget the times when we've felt God's presence before. Remember those moments, Kiucyn. They're like signposts on our spiritual journey, reminding us that God has been with us all along, and He will continue to be.

We also want to encourage you to keep seeking God. Keep praying, keep crying out to Him. Even if it feels like you're crying out into the void, remember that God hears you. He sees you. He's right there with you.

And let's not forget the power of community. We're here for you, Kiucyn. We're praying for you, and we're here to listen, to encourage, and to support you in any way we can.

Let's pray together:

"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You today, lifting up Kiucyn. Lord, we thank You for her faith and her desire to feel Your presence. We ask that You would draw near to her, that You would reveal Yourself to her in a powerful way. We pray against the spirits of oppression, depression, and trauma that have been afflicting her. We ask for Your healing power to manifest in her life, in her mind, and in her memories. Help her to sense Your leading, to experience the fullness of the Holy Spirit. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."

 

[The Encourager]

May God in Jesus' name answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy. Thank You Jesus!!!

Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.

God heal me. Deliver and cleansed me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the grace and knowledge of Christ Jesus. Transform and renew my mind. Bless me with love, power, and a sound mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. Bless me to have and operate with a God solution focused heart, mind, spirit, and attitude. Bless me to have a God Kingdom Culture Mentality. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God, all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, and all those I love and care about. God, please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so. Prayer written by Encourager Linda Flagg, M.A., Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach.

 

[marls]

Praying for this request in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Brother in Christ (JC)]

I'm praying for you my friend, in the mighty name of Jesus I pray, amen.

 

[Wyekul]

Praying for this request in Jesus Name.

 

[EnricoLange]

Lord Jesus please help them, us and all in need. Thank you. Amen.

 

[Felic]

Praying in Jesus Name.

 

[The Encourager]

God, I ask You in Jesus' name teach me how to always talk to You and pray about everything that concerns me. After I have prayed about it, let me place and leave everything in Your hands that concerns me. So that I will in Your perfect love, wisdom, and timing, see Your hands in everything that concerns me in my life. God, Your hands move mountains. Your hands are still working miracles. God touch me and anchor me in faith, prayer, and works. God do the same for the writer of this prayer, my family, and friends. Amen, so be it by faith. Thank You Jesus.