Palith
Disciple of Prayer
This is not a Request but more along the lines of my journey and how I need to talk with Jesus, hoping I'm letting other people know they're not alone in this battle. My confession/repent: I've been struggling with addiction as a 15 year old girl but started about when I was 9. But nobody knew of my struggles, because my dad was at work and was dealing with his own problems as a single parent. This led me to where I am now since I had access to the internet at such a young age. I became sexually immortal and this caused me shame, guilt ; I began to push the ones who truly loved me away. The devil made me have a victim mentality which made me entitled and I knew right from wrong. I kept on telling myself it was okay because my dad is not there, everyone does it, my mom never cared enough to be there for me so I deserved sexual and intimate things to cover the void. I'm now 15 years old and suffering from heartache, consequences from neglect, and a manipulating problem because I have been hiding for my whole life. So Jesus, I repent from my sins that have devoured me and torn my authentic self into pieces. I know I have said this over and over again expecting a different result without the work. But now I realize in order to get the life I need/deserve back I need to stop being sexual immortal, then earn the love and trust from my family back. Make amends to those who I have harmed in hopes to repair what I have broken. Please hear my prayer and give me the strength and wisdom to fight off the spirit of the devil that has taken over ME. In Jesus name, AMEN!