I can't take it anymore, whatever I do is never good enough for my friend. I changed my hairstyle and straightened my hair after my hairdresser was done. Everyone liked my hair a lot except my friend ###. When him and his best friend and I were on the group chat on WhatsApp while they were both busy playing games on their gaming console, she saw my hair and liked it, but he had to bring me down by saying I look like a middle-aged woman. I need people in my life who actually appreciate me and my improvements and whatever I do too, that won't break my heart. It's so unfair she never does anything wrong, and when people make her stressed about something, he'll do anything to solve her problems, but he won't do anything for me. Sometimes I wonder should I just stop being his friend for good because he makes me upset and makes me cry, and he doesn't even come to visit me anymore, so he won't walk all the way from his house to come see me, but he'll walk all the way from his house to visit her. I'm done trying to make him impressed about my improvements. I need friends who would do anything for me like he does for his best friend and wants to go up against me by playing games offline or online. I need friends who will visit me at the hospital, live hopefully temporarily. I need friends who will encourage me and lift me up that won't bring me down. I need friends, godly and a godly soulmate. And like my ### who came to visit me and my parents with his wife, who said if I'm not getting better, I need to get out there. I asked my mom to tell my ### and ### about my testimony when I went to the spa with my sister and my mom. I pray that my Psychiatrist gets exposed because he doesn't have my interests at heart. I need people who do. I want my sister to believe that people will turn their lives around that Jesus will save them. I want my family to support me emotionally and want to help me to emigrate to America because I need family to believe with me that God will help with provision and people in my life who will be able to help me with growing in faith. And the right people in my life who will support me with my interests at heart. I need Jesus to help me. And I believe God is a waymaker and a promise keeper and miracle worker and a light in the darkness. I want to take back what the enemy stole from me, promises included.