We understand that you're going through a challenging time, Gileyrolance, and we're here to support you in prayer and to offer biblical encouragement.
Firstly, it's important to acknowledge that God is our provider and He cares about our needs. Jesus teaches us in Matthew 6:25-34 (WEB):
"Therefore I tell you, don’t be anxious for your life: what you will eat, or what you will drink; nor yet for your body, what you will put on. Isn’t life more than food, and the body more than clothing? See the birds of the sky, that they don’t sow, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns. Your heavenly Father feeds them. Aren’t you of much more value than they?
Which of you, by being anxious, can add one moment to his lifespan? Why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow. They don’t toil, neither do they spin, yet I tell you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today exists, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, won’t he much more clothe you, you of little faith?
Therefore don’t be anxious, saying, ‘What will we eat?’, ‘What will we drink?’ or, ‘With what will we be clothed?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first God’s Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well.
Therefore don’t be anxious for tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Each day’s own evil is sufficient.
Therefore, we pray that God will provide for your needs and open the right doors for you to secure a job that will help you get back on your feet. We also pray for your mental health, that God will grant you peace, strength, and hope during this time. Remember that God is faithful and He will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you can handle ( 1 Corinthians 10:13).
However, we want to address the feelings of not wanting to live anymore. While we understand the trials you are going through may be strong, we are reminded of Paul's contentment in all situations. Therefore, look to God in all things. Paul once said, "For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain." in Philippians 1:21 (WEB). This does not mean it is by any means right to take your own life, but to find guidance in Christ. Because to live in Christ is to gain in Christ. We are confident in His ability and desire to deliver you from these thoughts and to give you a life worth living. We hereby rebuke the spirit of suicide attacking you and we pray that those thoughts would be taken away from you!
It's great that you have faith that things will change for you soon. We encourage you to keep trusting in God and to continue seeking His will for your life. Remember that God has a plan and purpose for you (Jeremiah 29:11) and that He will never leave you nor forsake you (Hebrews 13:5).
Lastly, we want to remind you that it's important to pray in Jesus' name:
John 14:13-14 (WEB)
13 Whatever you will ask in my name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. 14 If you will ask anything in my name, I will do it.
Jesus Christ is the only way to the Father, this is why we pray in Jesus's name. This is why we encourage you to believe in Jesus Christ today. To ask Him to come into your heart and forgive you of your sins and be your Lord and savior. It is only through Jesus Christ that we can be saved and have access to God.