Shathesca
Humble Servant
Never Give Up --- Never ever give up on God or someone or yourself. Never give up prayers for miracles and blessings. Never take it lightly or for granted that God will answer your prayers. Never give up! I have held on to my faith through the most intense and painful experience that almost got the best of me in the past 6 months. I've been separated from my wife for so long wondering why God was putting us through this process of confusion. I knew in my heart and soul that we love each other. We are best friends. But her mind was just not the same. She also started self medicating with medical Marijuana. I had tried everything to help her out but she couldn't get out of her addiction and negative thoughts. I thought if I gave her plenty of time she would get better but she didn't. I had to survive without having a place to live or food to eat. It took me awhile to get back on course. My mother passed away during this time too. Life was really testing me. But my mom taught me to always trust God to never give up on his promise. I had no one to grieve with. I had to start my life over from scratch because I couldn't talk with my wife. This was very difficult very crazy for me because I never have been apart from her for 12 years. I prayed night and day constantly. She was not doing well. I was not able to help her and her family didn't believe me that she was very addicted to Marijuana. I was not sleeping and I was working 12 hours a day 7days a week. My mind was very upset. I kept praying for her. I had only the clothes that I left in for the whole time. I lost over 150 pounds. I worried about her and I kept praying for her daily. Then I found prayer requests. I stayed up all night with prayer requests. I read other people's testimony. I started praying for others. I prayed outloud and read the psalms outloud. I stopped talking about the problem and the enemy. Jesus was in relationship with my higher self and started to affect my heart. I started attracting more people who helped me grow in prayer. I quit begging God and started trusting him. I kept my life filled with praise. Then something happened. I would sit up in the middle of the night and pray outloud. I held my Bible next to my heart. I visually saw my wife being healed. I was in relationship with her in my heart and mind. I knew she could hear me. God was telling me not to give up on her. I cried many nights wondering if my thoughts were reaching her. God kept me in my faith. I started wondering if I should give up but God would speak to my heart and say keep praying for her. I was very depressed and lonely. I just silently told her at night that I was not going to give up on her because I loved her so much. Then this week I got a message. It's not easy to express but it's about her mental illness. She is in a challenging situation mentally and emotionally. She may have been going through this journey longer than I realized. But she will be getting help for this I believe. She needs her mother to come and visit her and heal her at home. She will need a new perspective for her life. But this is the answer to my prayers. I am holding faith for my wife and dear sweet friend that I love and believe in. I feel it's a better start to get our relationship back together. Let prayer do its thing. Trust in God big time. It will empower you and your desire to be in forward motion. Believe in this power. Tell God your truth. Demand for your prayers to be answered. Be bold and be strong in your prayers. Never give up on God. There's a long way to go. There will be more challenges and more concerns but it will get better and better. Things will change. I believe God will deliver her from harm and deception and distraction from fear and sadness. I have been in Hell with my fears and God has removed me from the darkness. Never ever ever give up on God or someone who you love. Things will change and turn out better. Sometimes a person will go down to rise up. Let her know if you will for me that she can recover from this and rise up. Let her believe God will deliver her from mental strain. If you will help her I will forever be grateful to y'all. Thank you for your prayers and encouragement from our problems. God has given me a prayer family in this moment. You mean a lot to me. I am not alone anymore. Pray for Allie. May we heal her together. In Jesus name Amen. We will be praying for her daily. If you need anything just hold on I'm coming. It's all gonna be okay my friends!