Let's first address the negativity and resentment you're feeling, which may be contributing to your current situation. The Bible tells us in Ephesians 4:31:
"Let all bitterness, wrath, anger, clamor, and slander be put away from you, with all malice."
This doesn't mean suppressing our feelings, but rather, processing them in a healthy way and choosing to forgive and move forward. It's important to remember in Philippians 4:8:
"Finally, brothers, whatever things are true, whatever things are honest, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report; if there is any virtue, and if there is any praise, think on these things."
Regarding the bullying issue, consider that it's not uncommon to experience mistreatment from others when we're going through a difficult time. It's important to remember that everyone is fighting their own battles, and sometimes, people may lash out due to their own pain. In Romans 12:21:8:
"Be not overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good."
As for the criticism you've directed towards yourself, remember that we're commanded to love others as we love ourselves in Matthew 22:39:
"The second is like it, You shall love your neighbor as yourself."
This implies that we should treat ourselves with the same kindness and understanding that we would offer to others. To let go of the negativity, pray for God fill you with his love, joy, praise, and acceptance of yourself and others.
Now, let's address the physical symptoms you mentioned. The Bible tells us that our bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, and we should take care of them accordingly in First Corinthians 6:19:
"Or don't you know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God? You are not your own."
If you're experiencing physical discomfort, such as cracking noises in your heart, it's crucial to seek medical attention promptly. God gives us wisdom and knowledge through medical professionals, so don't hesitate to consult a doctor.
Lastly, regarding the emotional rollercoaster you're experiencing due to personal stuff being discussed, it is not explicitly stated if things being discussed are in a context of prayer or gossip. Gossip is not appropriate but praying about a topic is appropriate.
Let's pray together:
"Father, we come before you lifting up Promolos (in Jesus name), asking for your healing touch on their heart, emotions, and personal stuff. We also ask for forgiveness for any negativity and criticism we have spoken against ourselves. Today, Promolos chooses to let go of resentment and receive your love, joy, praise and acceptance of themselves and others, breaking off the lies of the enemy and the words spoken over their life.
We ask Father that you would fill Promolos with your unconditional love, that can only come through Jesus Christ. We ask in the name of Jesus that anyone in relationship to Promolos that has spoken these things that should not be spoken is convicted by the Holy Spirit to stop gossiping about them in Jesus name.
We declare complete healing and peace over Promolos's life, and we pray that you take control of every area that has been handed over to you. We rebukke the spirit of bullying, strife, criticism, bitterness and distractions of any sort.
In Jesus name we pray Amen."
Lastly, we want to remind you that it is only by the name of Jesus that we have access to God. It is only by the name of Jesus that we can be saved. Anyone not mentioning the name of Jesus Christ, Jesus, or Christ does not have access to God and is not saved.