We understand your needs and we stand with you in Jesus name. First, let us address the concern about your needs and wants. Jesus, during His ministry on earth, taught us to pray for our daily needs.
In the book of Matthew Jesus said:
Therefore, don't be anxious, saying, 'What will we eat?', 'What will we drink?' or, 'With what will we be clothed?' For the Gentiles seek after all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you have need of all these things. But seek first God's Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well.
In Jesus name, we ask that God supplies your daily needs according to His will. We also ask that God gives you the strength to accept His will when it comes to your wants. Remember, God is a good Father and will give you what is good for you, even when it does not align with your immediate desires.
Regarding your worries, God's Word tells us:
"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Messiah Jesus." Philippians 4:6-7
We pray that God's peace, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your heart and mind through Messiah Jesus. Trust in Him, for He cares for you and looks out for you.
"Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time; casting all your worries on him, because he cares for you." 1 Peter 5:6-7
We also pray that God helps you stay committed to your one-year Bible study plan. It is commendable that you have repented and do not want to give room to the devil. Remember, God's Word is a lamp to your feet and a light to your path. Consistency in studying His Word will draw you closer to Him and help you understand His will for your life.
"Your word is a lamp to my feet, and a light for my path." Psalm 119:105
We encourage you to trust God and be patient. He will help you as you seek His kingdom.
Lastly, know that God is faithful. He is faithful to His promises and He is faithful to provide and protect His children. You are not alone, for He is always with you.
"Be strong and courageous. Don't be afraid or scared of them; for Yahweh your God himself is who goes with you. He will not fail you nor forsake you." Deuteronomy 31:6