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blindwillsee
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I am down on myself and feel worthless all because of gambling. I never in my wildest dreams thought I could be an addictive gambler. It started a few years ago when I moved to an area where there are lots of Native casinos and I won about $20,000 over the course of a few months mostly slots and I thought I couldn't lose. Since then I was intermittently winning but have lost way more than I won don't even want to say, to the point I am in deep debt and now have no retirement. It grabs ahold of you when you lose, and you play to try to recoup your previous losses problem is even when you win it isn't good enough so you keep playing and lose more. It is an endless cycle. I also go to the casino because I am lonely and don't want to go to the bars and I know there are others that have the same problem there I do and we talk but still gamble. I want to break this cycle it is killing me and I feel terrible about myself every time I come home. I know I shouldn't go but I still do I do not understand this it must be truly an evil that has ahold of my soul. This is a huge problem for every age and race. I see retirees blowing their retirement checks, working people who get into trouble, young people getting further into debt. Please pray for all of us that can't break away from this evil that destroys lives. We need everyone that can pray to pray to break this cycle for all of us because it is a huge epidemic all over. Thank you and God Bless!!