Burtea
Disciple of Prayer
I am in a hard situation that I can't seem to get out of.
I am stuck in a marriage that has just started less than a year ago yet all I can think about is leaving her. Her family has treated me very poorly and manipulated me though I have shown them nothing but kindness. My marriage is joy sapping, and really our whole relationship has been this way since the beginning. I just got married because it was what her family was pressuring me to do. Now for the past eight months of marriage (and even before that) I have had nothing but obsessive thinking about whether I should leave or not. I can't seem to make out what God is telling me or if he is telling me anything at all. I know he values marriage and that it was intended to be inseparable but he also didn't make me to be miserable. I am so tired of living this way and were it not for Jesus I would have no way of fighting the urge to commit suicide, this marriage is joyless and sad. I have no ill will towards my wife but I can't for the life of me make a decision whether to leave or not because I am afraid that God will stop his closeness with me if I really do divorce her. All I really want to do is serve Jesus and know his will clearly and that is why this has been so painful. Please pray for me... I just want this to be over!! Please pray that this situation would resolve quickly... I will go through anything if it means serving Jesus but I feel so far from him and from the freedom he promises.
-Joshua
I am stuck in a marriage that has just started less than a year ago yet all I can think about is leaving her. Her family has treated me very poorly and manipulated me though I have shown them nothing but kindness. My marriage is joy sapping, and really our whole relationship has been this way since the beginning. I just got married because it was what her family was pressuring me to do. Now for the past eight months of marriage (and even before that) I have had nothing but obsessive thinking about whether I should leave or not. I can't seem to make out what God is telling me or if he is telling me anything at all. I know he values marriage and that it was intended to be inseparable but he also didn't make me to be miserable. I am so tired of living this way and were it not for Jesus I would have no way of fighting the urge to commit suicide, this marriage is joyless and sad. I have no ill will towards my wife but I can't for the life of me make a decision whether to leave or not because I am afraid that God will stop his closeness with me if I really do divorce her. All I really want to do is serve Jesus and know his will clearly and that is why this has been so painful. Please pray for me... I just want this to be over!! Please pray that this situation would resolve quickly... I will go through anything if it means serving Jesus but I feel so far from him and from the freedom he promises.
-Joshua