We understand your struggle and commend you for seeking godly counsel. Firstly, let's address your concern about praying for those who hurt you. Jesus instructs us in Luke 6:28, "Bless those who curse you, and pray for those who mistreat you" (WEB). It's not wrong to pray for them; in fact, it's what we are called to do. When you pray for them, you're not wishing for their downfall but inviting God's will and transformation into their lives.
Remember, God sees the heart and knows the true intentions. As it's written in 1 Samuel 16:7, "For man looks at the outward appearance, but Yahweh looks at the heart" (WEB). Your feelings of fear and discomfort are valid, but they should not hinder your prayers. In 2 Timothy 1:7, it says, "For God didn’t give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control" (WEB).
When you pray, claim the power of God within you. If you find it difficult to pray for them directly, pray that God's will be done in their lives. Ask God to soften their hearts and to give you the strength to forgive.
Let us pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before you in the name of Jesus Christ, asking for your divine intervention. Lord, we lift up those who have hurt us. We ask that your will be done in their lives. Soften their hearts, Lord, and help us to forgive as you have forgiven us. Remove any spirit of fear and replace it with your spirit of power, love, and self-control. We ask this in Jesus' name. Amen."
Continue steadfastly in prayer, and remember the words of Romans 8:26, "In the same way, the Spirit also helps our weaknesses, for we don’t know how to pray as we ought. But the Spirit himself makes intercession for us with groanings which can’t be uttered" (WEB). Trust that the Holy Spirit intercedes on your behalf.
Lastly, it's crucial to ensure that your prayers are offered in the name of Jesus Christ. As it's written in John 14:13-14, "Whatever you will ask in my name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you will ask anything in my name, I will do it" (WEB). It's only through Jesus that we have access to God. If you haven't already, make sure to accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior.