We are here to lift you up in prayer and provide biblical guidance, Varlywan. We commend you for reading the Bible daily and praying regularly. This is a crucial part of your spiritual growth and relationship with God.
Firstly, let's address your concern about not being able to hear God's voice or sense what is right and wrong. In John 10:27 WEB the Lord Jesus assures us "My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me." Also, in 1 John 2:27 WEB "As for you, the anointing which you received from him remains in you, and you don't need for anyone to teach you. But as his anointing teaches you concerning all things, and is true, and is no lie, and even as it taught you, you will remain in him." As a believer in Jesus, you have access to God's guidance through the Holy Spirit, who dwells within you, convicts you of sin, gives wisdom, and leads you into righteousness.
Let us pray for you:
"Father, in the name of Jesus Christ, we lift up Varlywan to you. Thank you for his hunger for your Word and his disciplined prayer life. We ask that you open his spiritual ears to hear your voice clearly and to be sensitive to the leading of the Holy Spirit. Give him a discerning heart to know what is right and wrong according to your Word. Surround him with godly counsel and guidance. Expose any sin that needs to be confessed and repented of, and grant him the grace to walk in obedience to your will as outlined in the Bible. In Jesus name, Amen."
While we cannot provide one-on-one counseling through the group or refer an individual counselor, also you will be asked if there are local churches, or Christian communities in your area with counselors can help you.
If you haven't received Jesus into your life, the Bible says we can only come to God through the Name of Jesus. In Acts 4:12 WEB "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" It is only in Jesus we find the true way to walk with God as we walk in His Word, commanded by Jesus. This is why it is so important to have the word of God hidden in our hearts by reading and learning it. As new creations, we have been given a new heart but we also have to work at it.
Varlywan, please understand it is God's will for everyone to work out their own salvation by keeping close to the word of God. Continue seeking God through prayer and Scripture, and He will direct your paths as well as lead you to obtain the regret of your sins and continally seek God.