Ash86
Humble Servant of All
I have less than 2 weeks to find a place, but I am unemployed and have only a little bit of money. Which will not even pay for a motel to stay at or even a moving van to get my stuff out of where I currently reside. I need prayers that someone with a kind heart will help, that God choose someone willing to open their home and help me for a short time. Or that God provide a place of my own to live in and that I will be able to have a job to pay for it. I am so stressed and having a hard time dealing with all that has been thrown in my lap for a year. My family has used me and are finally done using me for money, now they are going their own ways. They have friends, family or boyfriends that can help them, I have no one. Any family that talks to me cannot help me, some do not live in the same state as me, others just do not care to help. Had lots of friends offer me places to stay, but they all live in other states, I was overwhelmed when they offered help. Which I will not be able to take, cause of living in a different state then them.
I am so tired, have not been sleeping, I have been losing sleep over everything that has happened this pass year. Seems like nothing is going to change and it upsets me that my family got away with abuse again. I thought they have changed, thought they would not use their religions to hurt me, but they did. My ex-aunt is extremely religious when it is convenient to benefit her, especially when she gives tithe, she expects God to deliver what she wants. I was taught tithe is to be given from the heart, not to be given thinking God owes me now, for sacrificing the money out of my pocket. I hope that God can show them where they misuse him and his word, that they should not do that and use it to hurt someone. Cause it causes people to not want to believe in God, I have been there and it had to do with them, when I was younger.
I just need peace and need help, I want freedom from the people that do not care. I just want to be able to prove that I am responsible and have not ever got a chance to do that in my entire life. All cause family and family friends judge me on my ex-parent's actions as a young adult and now as an older adult. Everyone is an individual, that is what I was taught God created us to be, that not everyone is going to repeat mistakes others have made in the past or present. Please, God, I just need a way out and I can finally have a life of my own. Where I only answer to you and not have to explain myself to others, especially my beliefs and religion of choice.
I am so tired, have not been sleeping, I have been losing sleep over everything that has happened this pass year. Seems like nothing is going to change and it upsets me that my family got away with abuse again. I thought they have changed, thought they would not use their religions to hurt me, but they did. My ex-aunt is extremely religious when it is convenient to benefit her, especially when she gives tithe, she expects God to deliver what she wants. I was taught tithe is to be given from the heart, not to be given thinking God owes me now, for sacrificing the money out of my pocket. I hope that God can show them where they misuse him and his word, that they should not do that and use it to hurt someone. Cause it causes people to not want to believe in God, I have been there and it had to do with them, when I was younger.
I just need peace and need help, I want freedom from the people that do not care. I just want to be able to prove that I am responsible and have not ever got a chance to do that in my entire life. All cause family and family friends judge me on my ex-parent's actions as a young adult and now as an older adult. Everyone is an individual, that is what I was taught God created us to be, that not everyone is going to repeat mistakes others have made in the past or present. Please, God, I just need a way out and I can finally have a life of my own. Where I only answer to you and not have to explain myself to others, especially my beliefs and religion of choice.
