Ash86
Humble Servant of All
I was over on my college website to check my grade for the class I took this past semester, I was excited and overjoyed I passed with a B, I was thanking God for his help. Then as I was checking some other stuff out on my profile and my heart fell, I was given an Academic Dismissal status on my profile, I am so heartbroken and distraught right now. I have been punished for grades from 2005, I left college back then due to my mother going back to past addictions she had. She threw me out, before I could finish the semester and I tried to explain to the college I was homeless and unable to attend anymore at the time. One professor understood, the other one did not and gave me an F grade. I was so hurt by not being helped by anyone at the college at the time, I asked and no one was even trying to help. I know that was the enemy back then and the enemy is back at it again.
I was so happy to return after 11 years of being out of college, looking forward to getting at least one of the degrees I was working on. I need prayer, for when I appeal my Academic Dismissal, when I get the letter I will receive soon and see what the date will be to begin the appeal process. Pray I have the courage and ability to be able to talk to the board and that I have favor in their eyes. I have to explain what happened back in 2005, it is very hard to talk about it, because during my mother going back to her old addictions, she was abusing me and her boyfriend at the time was threatening my life. I have Autism, Asperger's and it makes it hard to talk to people or sometimes go out of the house. That is why my nerves are on edge, because I am already having panic attacks from thinking about going before a panel and trying to talk to them to be able to continue my education. My anxiety is high and I am just going over in my head, if I will be able to talk or will I freeze in front of this panel.
Pray I can win my appeal and I can be able to explain what happened those 11 years ago, that I can be strong and have favor in the panel's eyes. That they have mercy on me and allow me to continue to attend this college, if not, that I can find another college that I can attend if need be. I love the college I am at now, my parents both attended it and my father graduated from there. I was hoping to get at least one degree from the college and then go to university to finish off my other degrees.
Sorry if my post was a bit long, I am just so nervous about this situation.
I also have a few unspoken prayers, that have nothing to do with what is going on with my education. I just did not want to make my post too long and take up time from other prayers being asked for.
Thank you to those that pray for me and my situation, plus, pray for my unspoken prayers. Have a blessed evening and weekend.
I was so happy to return after 11 years of being out of college, looking forward to getting at least one of the degrees I was working on. I need prayer, for when I appeal my Academic Dismissal, when I get the letter I will receive soon and see what the date will be to begin the appeal process. Pray I have the courage and ability to be able to talk to the board and that I have favor in their eyes. I have to explain what happened back in 2005, it is very hard to talk about it, because during my mother going back to her old addictions, she was abusing me and her boyfriend at the time was threatening my life. I have Autism, Asperger's and it makes it hard to talk to people or sometimes go out of the house. That is why my nerves are on edge, because I am already having panic attacks from thinking about going before a panel and trying to talk to them to be able to continue my education. My anxiety is high and I am just going over in my head, if I will be able to talk or will I freeze in front of this panel.
Pray I can win my appeal and I can be able to explain what happened those 11 years ago, that I can be strong and have favor in the panel's eyes. That they have mercy on me and allow me to continue to attend this college, if not, that I can find another college that I can attend if need be. I love the college I am at now, my parents both attended it and my father graduated from there. I was hoping to get at least one degree from the college and then go to university to finish off my other degrees.
Sorry if my post was a bit long, I am just so nervous about this situation.
I also have a few unspoken prayers, that have nothing to do with what is going on with my education. I just did not want to make my post too long and take up time from other prayers being asked for.
Thank you to those that pray for me and my situation, plus, pray for my unspoken prayers. Have a blessed evening and weekend.
