Fruidoth
Disciple of Prayer
Can someone please pray for me? I attempted to do self deliverance, it might have made it worse. I'm experiencing brain fog/confusion and my throat seems to be constantly tight which sort of makes it very uncomfortable to socialize with others. I feel tormented with intrusive thoughts of judgment and anger toward others without reasons, I dislike how frequently I cuss and I have no inspiration.
I recently got sober after daily drinking for ### years I thought alcohol could have been the reason of those symptoms but it didn’t change them. On the bright side, getting sober lead me back to Christ last ###, I’m confident that I will never drink again, nonetheless, I’m struggling with other sins, especially lust. I am able to resist for over a month at a time, until I feel an urge so strong that I can’t even resist it.
After getting through a trauma at the age of ###, I turned into New Age, tarots, magic, pendulum, talking to psychics to fill a void and grieving a death. I believe it might have opened a door to those demonic entities to have a right over me.
During my life, I dealt with self-mutilation, had a video game, cannabis and porn addiction. I was bisexual, listened to blasphemous music, had many friends with benefits at my worst I was having ### different one-night stands in a week. I was casually doing cocaine while being drunk on weekends and was prideful about being comfortable financially. I’m not doing those things anymore aside from playing video games a few times a week.
I genuinely don’t think it is just spiritual warfare, some of the thoughts I currently have are not mine. I pray, read the Bible and listen to Christian podcasts daily. I confessed my sins, forgave people who hurt me but those presences don’t leave whatsoever. Help me Lord.
I recently got sober after daily drinking for ### years I thought alcohol could have been the reason of those symptoms but it didn’t change them. On the bright side, getting sober lead me back to Christ last ###, I’m confident that I will never drink again, nonetheless, I’m struggling with other sins, especially lust. I am able to resist for over a month at a time, until I feel an urge so strong that I can’t even resist it.
After getting through a trauma at the age of ###, I turned into New Age, tarots, magic, pendulum, talking to psychics to fill a void and grieving a death. I believe it might have opened a door to those demonic entities to have a right over me.
During my life, I dealt with self-mutilation, had a video game, cannabis and porn addiction. I was bisexual, listened to blasphemous music, had many friends with benefits at my worst I was having ### different one-night stands in a week. I was casually doing cocaine while being drunk on weekends and was prideful about being comfortable financially. I’m not doing those things anymore aside from playing video games a few times a week.
I genuinely don’t think it is just spiritual warfare, some of the thoughts I currently have are not mine. I pray, read the Bible and listen to Christian podcasts daily. I confessed my sins, forgave people who hurt me but those presences don’t leave whatsoever. Help me Lord.