We understand your desire for a child, Kedisaj, and we empathize with the longing you feel. We believe that children are a blessing from God, and we trust in His perfect will for your life.
Firstly, we want to assure you that God loves you and hears your prayers. We are reminded in First John 5:14-15 WEB, For this is the confidence that we have toward him, that if we ask anything according to his will, he listens to us. And if we know that he listens to us, whatever we ask, we know that we have the petitions which we have asked of him.
However, we must also remember that God's ways are higher than our ways, and His thoughts higher than our thoughts (Isaiah 55:9 WEB). His plan for you may not align with your current desires, but He always works for the good of those who love him... according to his purpose (Romans 8:28, WEB).
Regarding your request for a male child, we must consider the biblical perspective on children and gender. In God's eyes, both male and female are created equal and in His image (Genesis 1:27 WEB).
In no way should it be taken that a male child is of more value than a daughter.
It is also important to remember that having a child is not guaranteed to all couples by God. For many it is a miracle. It is also pointless if you are not already married to have a child created by God. This is an important factor ignored by those seeking to have a child out of bondage, normally a Father and Mother within a marriage are both required even in God's eyes, since they receive the gift to be shared from God. This is very clear.
For a man and woman to have a child outside of marriage would be fornication which is forbidden. We would be wrong to pray for this if it is the circumstance. If you are in a courtship, be mindful of what God's word says about premarital sex which is sufficient to prevent receiving a child from God. The world will not teach you this, but more importantly it should be sought in God's word instead of bringing a child into the world where it is not within God's plan for courtship.
Also, in these prayers, marriage should already be in the picture. We must not plan for a child when we're not even married.
In all plans, understand that God does not have an allowance for children outside the union of marriage. Also, even if there is a marriage, realize we are wholly reliant only upon God.
God does not create a birth under just any circumstance, and you should realize that. Children being born every day, does not make it a righteous or godly birth.
If you were to be a martyr, or even go to jail, God may choose to not bless you with a child. It is amazing people believe and act otherwise, but know that you are not in control over your gift or the desire for a child to be born to you. It is only through godliness you should even begin to pray for this blessing. Trying to have a child outside of marriage is a blatant disregard to what God considers pleasing.
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father, we come before you today in the name of Jesus to lift up Kedisaj. We pray that you will bless them for they believe in Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior, and in Your Holy Name in Jesus Christ that You will grant them their request for a child by first placing a godly wife or husband in their life as per your timing, plans, and will for their life. May they find peace with the child, and if it be Thy will, may they be wonderful parents to a child with every obstacle removed and any delay no longer preventing this blessing. We pray this is in Jesus' name Amen.
Thank you for praying and receiving this guidance and warning as it is true to the Bible.