prayerworks75
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My whole life I've not been happy. Always miserable. Always miserable. Why can't I be happy? I don't understand what the purpose of this life is. Is it just for people to continually suffer for up to 100 years, and why? What's the purpose of our suffering? What's the purpose of any of this? Why send billions of people to planet earth just for suffering. What did I ever do so so bad in this existence, or prior to being born on earth in a human body, to deserve a life of suffering, sickness, and poverty. The drunk doctor who delivered me let me swallow afterbirth and it almost killed me. I was in intensive care in an incubator for first two weeks of my life. I've always been a loner and don't fit in well with other people or the world. I don't understand why God ever let me come out of that incubator. He could have spared me this life and took me back home, but instead he left me here..for more suffering and unhappiness. Born to a family who would never love me, now as an adult, with the memories of my childhood and the dysfunctional family from my youth, I have trouble finding happiness with my own family. I don't understand what's the point in all of this.