Before I posted an anonymous prayer request yesterday, I already made up my mind to commit suicide. Something was already telling me the only way out of my situation was to die. It was a hopeless and helpless situation. I was 3 days gone without food.
Last night I went on my knees all night. I had read about Paul (Ephesus, Caesarea, Rome – Acts 16:23), Peter (Jerusalem – Acts 12:6-10), and John (Rome, Patmos – Revelation 1: 9) who were all banished to die. I read on how prisoner on banishment will give up and die and how John chose not to let the “darkness” of Patmos destroy his hope, destroy him, or destroy his ability to serve the Lord. He built a church, he worshiped God, and he brought hope through the gospel of Jesus Christ to those on Patmos. I realized that regardless of how dark the world around me seem, i can still “build a church”, I can pray, I can worship, and i can fellowship with God.
This morning, I ignored the danger on the street. I was not afraid of stray bullet. I was ready to face death. Having nothing to do out there and no where to go, I went down the street and found a bottle of 100$ bleach. I immediately said to myself "God has given me this to kill myself " I was very sure it was the answer to my prayer.
As I was walking down with the bottle of bleach, someone approached me, plead for it in exchange for a cup of rice. Immediately I gave him and collected the rice. I cooked it, ate it and reserved a little for tomorrow.
God bless you for your prayers
Last night I went on my knees all night. I had read about Paul (Ephesus, Caesarea, Rome – Acts 16:23), Peter (Jerusalem – Acts 12:6-10), and John (Rome, Patmos – Revelation 1: 9) who were all banished to die. I read on how prisoner on banishment will give up and die and how John chose not to let the “darkness” of Patmos destroy his hope, destroy him, or destroy his ability to serve the Lord. He built a church, he worshiped God, and he brought hope through the gospel of Jesus Christ to those on Patmos. I realized that regardless of how dark the world around me seem, i can still “build a church”, I can pray, I can worship, and i can fellowship with God.
This morning, I ignored the danger on the street. I was not afraid of stray bullet. I was ready to face death. Having nothing to do out there and no where to go, I went down the street and found a bottle of 100$ bleach. I immediately said to myself "God has given me this to kill myself " I was very sure it was the answer to my prayer.
As I was walking down with the bottle of bleach, someone approached me, plead for it in exchange for a cup of rice. Immediately I gave him and collected the rice. I cooked it, ate it and reserved a little for tomorrow.
God bless you for your prayers