Stephanie12
Prayer Partner
My suicidal thoughts are coming back again. Im just going to pray the demons away and hope I'm strong enough to fight this. So much is on my mind and I just don't know how to deal with it. God please help me get through this. Heal my broken heart. Help me pay for school if that's the path you want me to take. Through all of this I knew not to give up faith because God always gets me through my troubles. Things get a little better and then worse again. Why am I not happy? Why do I constantly allow others steal my joy. Why did I allow for my self-esteem to be crushed where it's to the point I can't even look people in the eye when I speak to them. I don't feel like I am good enough for anybody or anything anymore. I just wish I could just disappear at times. Friends aren't always friends and the person I thought loved me doesn't really. I feel like I'm living in a nightmare that I can't wake up from. God please get me through everything. I feel like I'm coming to the end of my rope and I'm just hanging on by threads. I know you're there just waiting on me to talk to you and I am now. This is the best way I know how to. Fill this emptiness that I feel all the time. I don't know what else to say other than you know my heart and you know my struggle. All I ask of you is to help me fix them and overcome everything holding me back from fulfilling my destiny. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.