Gorgecent
Disciple of Prayer
On May 14th my Son called to ask if I could help him locate an item he needed before he went back into his Transitional House for the evening. I purposely laid him out declaring that this was HIS RESPONSIBILITY & that he had waited until the very last minute to obtain the item & without Any consideration of time, distance or weather, etc. my husband & I were "guilted" into locating & retrieving this item. Additionally, we drove 20 miles out of our radius to deliver this necessary item to him and thats' when I "berated" him for putting my husband & I in the middle of his DRAMA! I guess I had had ENUF after Constantly & Consistently Praying with him & for him & Fighting for his freedom for 71/2 years. But my husband & I ONCE AGAIN provided what he NEEDED and because I TOLD HIM "HE WAITED UNTIL THE LAST MINUTE TO RETRIEVE THIS ITEM HIS 'FEELINGS" GOT HURT. Now, he wants NOTHING to do with me and has even written in a text, "unless there is "life or death" situation involving "me" TO STAY MY DISTANCE FROM HIM!
I am beyond HURT, I FEEL lost sometimes without talking, seeing, or just hearing his voice. I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW (after Coming to Church on MOTHER'S Day & accepting Salvation, how he could TAKE HIS LOVE FROM ME....my youngest Son tells me, his brother was & is wrong for this & says his selfishness & immaturity (after being incarcerated for 71/2 years) has contributed to him wanting nothing to do with me. Additionally, I also believe that he is listening to AN OLDER WOMAN who is putting negative thoughts in his head about me, his Mother...I AM A SAVED MOTHER & I AM TRYING TO find SOME JOY & PEACE WHILE GOING THROUGH THIS "TRIAL....BUT I NEED THE LOVE & PRAYERS OF "WARRIOR PRAYERS!" I THANK ALL WHO UNDERSTAND MY PAIN & WILL PRAY FOR MY SON TO RETURN HIS "LOVE" to me.
I am beyond HURT, I FEEL lost sometimes without talking, seeing, or just hearing his voice. I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW (after Coming to Church on MOTHER'S Day & accepting Salvation, how he could TAKE HIS LOVE FROM ME....my youngest Son tells me, his brother was & is wrong for this & says his selfishness & immaturity (after being incarcerated for 71/2 years) has contributed to him wanting nothing to do with me. Additionally, I also believe that he is listening to AN OLDER WOMAN who is putting negative thoughts in his head about me, his Mother...I AM A SAVED MOTHER & I AM TRYING TO find SOME JOY & PEACE WHILE GOING THROUGH THIS "TRIAL....BUT I NEED THE LOVE & PRAYERS OF "WARRIOR PRAYERS!" I THANK ALL WHO UNDERSTAND MY PAIN & WILL PRAY FOR MY SON TO RETURN HIS "LOVE" to me.