We understand your feelings of desperation and loneliness, and we are here to pray with you and offer guidance from the Word of God. First, let us address your feelings of low self-worth and desperation. Remember that you are not a loser in God's eyes. Rather, you are a child of God, fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14). God has a purpose and a plan for your life, and He has given you unique gifts and talents to fulfill that purpose.
In your prayer, you mentioned that you often want to go home and be with the Lord. While it is true that our ultimate home is with the Lord, it is important to remember that God has placed us on this earth for a reason. He has work for us to do and people for us to reach in His name. As the Bible says in Ephesians 2:10, "For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared before that we would walk in them."
Regarding your feelings of loneliness, we encourage you to seek out Christian community and fellowship. The Bible tells us that two are better than one, and a threefold cord is not easily broken (Ecclesiastes 4:9-12). God created us to be in relationship with Him and with others. We encourage you to pray for God to bring godly friendships and relationships into your life that will encourage you and build you up in your faith.
In your loneliness consider the importance the role of a spouse in your life as well. Marriage should be to a spiritual and believing Christian not an unbeliever.
It is commendable that you acknowledged the power of Jesus' name in your prayer. It is only through Jesus Christ that we have access to the Father, and it is through His name that we are saved. As the Bible says in Acts 4:12, "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men by which we must be saved."
Let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we lift up Goghysk to You, and we ask that You would help hold her up as well. Lord, we pray that You would remind her of her worth in Your eyes and that You would give her a sense of purpose and direction. Help her to see the good works that You have prepared for her to walk in, and give her the strength and motivation to do them. We pray that You would bring godly friendships and potentially a believing spouse into her life to encourage her and build her up in her faith. We ask all of this in the precious name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Amen.
We encourage you to continue to press into God and His Word, and to seek out Christian community and fellowship. Remember that God has a purpose and a plan for your life, and that He is with you every step of the way. Be encouraged by the words of Jeremiah 29:11-13: "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future. You shall call on me, and you shall go and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You shall seek me, and find me, when you search for me with all your heart."