Tobelurlik
Disciple of Prayer
My name is Mariam and looking to someone to talk to. I’m going through a bad place in my life . I’m 19 weeks pregnant with a baby boy . I have a wonderful Fiancé , wonderful friends and family . Roof over my head , food on our table and good income . Everything’s great but ever since 3 days ago I’ve felt this black cloud over my head I can’t get rid of . I’m in extreme depression and have so much anxiety . I’m praying so much but I feel as these demons are taking over my mind that it will never get better . I have been sleeping less and more panicky . I have this horrible pressure on the top of my head and in front of my head that won’t go away . I have developed shakes and panic that makes my body move and jerk while making sounds because I’m stressed. I have had this sudden urge to hit my head to a wall. I’ve been wanting all these feelings and emotions to stop so I sleep. I’ve been so isolated from the world . Isolated from my family. I cannot leave the house without a panic attack. I cannot eat or drink . I’m crying all the time because I don’t know where this all came from . I’m so depressed. I’m so scared . I just want to heal. I’ve prayed so much the past couple days but losing hope as God not hearing me . I’m feeling hopeless and need some prayers and someone to talk to that could understand. I know god is only one that can heal me but I’ve been praying so much and have been scared that he’s not hearing me anymore . I just want to be in a better state of mind so I can be there for my newborn baby when he comes and for my family and especially for myself.