Lotuence Dube
Disciple of Prayer
My name is Lotuence Dube from Bulawayo Zimbabwe.... my life is so messed up , i dont have control of it anymore and i feel the Lord's embrace has left me.... am in very big trouble at school and i think i might lose a chance to write my exams this year at my institution. my faith has gone so so low its like am no longer afraid of sinning as i feel like life is worth less and there is no reason to live and i have a sin i commit almost every week i have never told anyone (some pastors have sensed it but i have always been afraid to go forward in crowed coz i fear judgement from people's minds) but i will say it out because it has become an addiction and its as if am possessed coz i cant let go of "masturbation" i have tried but praying for myself isnt helping.... am probably disgusting to the site of the lord but am disgusted of myself too and i think all the misfortunes in my life and in my family is because of me and its my punishment but i need to be changed by the Lords hand and to wake up tomorrow and fix my problems at xul with the Lord's help.
now when i sleep at night and am dreaming .... i kinda realise am dreaming then later the dream turns to a nightmare but worse i can not wake up from it and worst is i feel someone manhandling me in the physical world and when i try to say "Jesus " my mouth would not open what so ever.....
so please i beg you who read this to pray for me so i can study and sleep in peace the rest of my nights....
now when i sleep at night and am dreaming .... i kinda realise am dreaming then later the dream turns to a nightmare but worse i can not wake up from it and worst is i feel someone manhandling me in the physical world and when i try to say "Jesus " my mouth would not open what so ever.....
so please i beg you who read this to pray for me so i can study and sleep in peace the rest of my nights....