Anonymous
Beloved of All
I rarely see my parents maybe that's why we get on... when i'm away they criticise me all the time and speak down on me, are unsupportive and would rather listen anyone else's problem but mine. they're selfish rude and they always used to thre4ten to throw me out or make me feel unwelcome in our living space to the point i thr4atened i'd run away. this was so many years ago. i wisened up, learned to be quiet, things got better. but i swear to god i always thought my mom was a narcissist, that or broken by life and my dad. i swore when i turn 19 it'll be no contact. lately i had some mental health issue that is stress dependent and she is not helping with all her saying vile things to me that should never be uttered to a child. Context: i came back for xmas. we didnt even do anything together. she rather avoid me and tell me i talk too much and am annoying. i wish our relationship was repaired and she acted like a real mom not an evil disney step mom to me. my sister is also acting out of sorts.. when she doesnt get her way tantrum cussing out my mom etc it's as if my family is possessed with mental and physical health issues and everyone is proud and wont admit their wrongs.
never heard ever the word sorry come out my mothers mouth, to me or anyone, despite her saying she dont find it hard to apologise, lies. anyways, today we had such a big argument that i wanted to (off) myself or my health issues to finish me off, they didnt even take me serious but only added to my stress and shouting and overwhelming me and also was betrayed by sister in same day. now about sister, she is mouthy, disrespectful to me and mom and out of order for real. mega nasty child she became. like rude and fat and she used to be cute, innocent and healthy weight. now she is glutton and only spend time with us when she can steal something from the fridge. i feel robbed of my family and of this xmas holiday. my mother said she dont wanna see me again and why dont i go back, leave my house, when am i gonna leave already etc etc. i cried 3 times today feel like crying even more but will make my mental health worse and she dont deserve my tears. please genuinely pray she apologises to me and realizes her wrong and makes it up to me like begging me, nothing else will make me happy, this woman has never made me feel loved or safe or ever made her wrongs right. id be so happy if she just said how remorseful she was for hurting me n that she didn't mean it, maybe if she says it the su**idal feelings from my past will go away again. please let us have family time together before i leave and let her be punished by missing me heavily while i'[m gone and ask me to come home for summer and not make some argument when i next see her. let my sister be a nice girl and get her life together again and we have family harmony as a unit and spend time tg. i beg you pray for me, don't just say i prayed and scroll, please if you're a real person drop me a comment of solidarity and understanding and encourage me to be strong, to have faith, because it's low rn. i feel defeated.
please. i know God will return your miracle for praying for me with all your heart.
thank you
never heard ever the word sorry come out my mothers mouth, to me or anyone, despite her saying she dont find it hard to apologise, lies. anyways, today we had such a big argument that i wanted to (off) myself or my health issues to finish me off, they didnt even take me serious but only added to my stress and shouting and overwhelming me and also was betrayed by sister in same day. now about sister, she is mouthy, disrespectful to me and mom and out of order for real. mega nasty child she became. like rude and fat and she used to be cute, innocent and healthy weight. now she is glutton and only spend time with us when she can steal something from the fridge. i feel robbed of my family and of this xmas holiday. my mother said she dont wanna see me again and why dont i go back, leave my house, when am i gonna leave already etc etc. i cried 3 times today feel like crying even more but will make my mental health worse and she dont deserve my tears. please genuinely pray she apologises to me and realizes her wrong and makes it up to me like begging me, nothing else will make me happy, this woman has never made me feel loved or safe or ever made her wrongs right. id be so happy if she just said how remorseful she was for hurting me n that she didn't mean it, maybe if she says it the su**idal feelings from my past will go away again. please let us have family time together before i leave and let her be punished by missing me heavily while i'[m gone and ask me to come home for summer and not make some argument when i next see her. let my sister be a nice girl and get her life together again and we have family harmony as a unit and spend time tg. i beg you pray for me, don't just say i prayed and scroll, please if you're a real person drop me a comment of solidarity and understanding and encourage me to be strong, to have faith, because it's low rn. i feel defeated.
please. i know God will return your miracle for praying for me with all your heart.
thank you