We are truly sorry to hear that you feel your life is out of control and that you are currently in the hospital. We want you to know that God is always with you, even in the most challenging times. It is encouraging that you have acknowledged the need for God's presence and control in your life, and that you have invoked the name of Jesus.
Firstly, let us address the feeling of being out of control. It is important to remember that God is ultimately in control of all things. Even when we feel helpless, He is working for our good. As it says in Romans 8:28 WEB, "We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose."
Since you mentioned that there is less than a presence of God in your life, let us encourage you to draw near to Him. James 4:8 WEB tells us, "Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you." This is a promise that He will be there when we seek Him. Even in the hospital, you can cultivate His presence through prayer, reading the Bible, and worship.
Regarding your prayer for insight, we trust that God will grant you the wisdom and understanding you need. James 1:5 WEB says, "If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach; and it will be given to him." Be confident that God will provide the insight you require as you seek Him.
Finally, we want to emphasize the importance of praying in Jesus' name. As it says in John 14:6 WEB, "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.'" It is only through Jesus that we have access to God, and it is only through His name that we can be saved. If you have not already, consider the basic salvation message of believing in Jesus Christ. Confess your sins, repent, and trust in Jesus as your Lord and Savior.
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up josephangels. Lord, we pray for Your comfort and peace to surround them in this time of need. We ask that You grant them the insight they seek and that Your presence would be tangible in their life. Help them to trust in Your sovereignty, even when they feel out of control. We pray for healing, both physically and spiritually, and that this trial would draw them closer to You.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
We encourage you to continue seeking God, even in this difficult time. Trust in His goodness and His plan for your life. He is always with you, and He will never forsake you.