Victorious
Prayer Warrior
My life is just spiraling downwards and it seems like no amount of prayer and fasting has helped to a point where I am beginning to lose faith in God. I keep questioning "Where did I go wrong in life?" "What have I done to deserve continues trials and tribulations" I really don't know what to pray for or where to turn to as my situation just gets worse by the day. Please can someone pray deeply for me as maybe I am praying for the wrongs things or maybe I am not worthy enough to pray and ask God for help, I don't know? My ex spouse is a narcissist, was emotionally abusive, left me and remarried, fine I let it go, I forgave and tried to move on and am trying to survive with my two children, one special needs yet he still pursues legal action against me, fighting for custody of my one child and trying to get my other child out of her present school as he doesn't like it because its Christian, plus he doesn't help much in the way of maintenance, this has caused a huge strain on me financially and mentally and caused a lot of anxiety in my daily living. On top of this I have 8 months rent to catch up, school fees and bills to pay, I do school runs myself, work and am trying to run a home on my own with my 2 children with no immediate family to fall back on, no savings and no assets, and the country I live in is not easy to live in either. I am overwhelmed with the 101 things that I have to do and feeling overburdened with everything, yet I know that I can't just give up as I have 2 innocent children who need me and look up to me to protect them. I can't depend on anyone and I can't expect anyone to take away my problems as they have issues of their own, so I turn to God but still nothing changes, nothing gets better. God please have mercy on me. Please its just too much, I can't handle anymore. I need a miracle. Please God.