Eredless
Disciple of Prayer
I need help, prayers, I need to God to help me as I know only He can, but He feels far away from me. For the past few years I've struggled with my faith as everyday things around me seemed to get worse, the past two years have been the worst period in my life. I lost my mom to cancer after a few short months of her getting diagnosed, she was my rock and amazing prayer warrior. I had to go into debt just to bury my mother properly and support my family. I have been a lifeline for everyone in my life, giving all that I can of myself and whatever means I had to share. Now, there is no one that can or will help me. Everyday I am swarmed by a plague of debt collectors that refuse to work with me. My debt grows and my hope shrinks. My credit has been irreparably damaged and I have no means to fall back on. I have attempted to gain income from other jobs, other side ventures, anything that might yield a little hope and despite asking God at every turn to go before, they all fail. I have begged on my knees many nights for God to turn his face toward me, even for a moment but it feels as if He says no. I know that scripture teaches us to ask, and I have. I have asked God for a miracle, I have even asked Him just spare me for one day, and it never comes. I'm tired, I've become too tired to pray anymore. I've reached a point where it feels like the only thing God wants is for me to die. I know that isn't true but it's hard to see anything else now. I am on the verge of losing everything and yet God is silent. Please offer prayers for me if you will. This is a desperate chance of God listening to someone, anyone, else. Thank you and God keep you always