My husband and I have been together for 19 ...

[Anonymous]

My husband and I have been together for 19 years married for 16 have been separated for 2 years and living apart for 5 months now. We have 2 children and sold our house. When we sold the house he took the kids and soon after I lost my job. I have been going through depression. To the point of not wanting to be here, I fight myself every night wondering why and how? I pray to God I get frustrated and yell at God then apploigize because I'm scared he'll allow more things to happen to me. Im confused, but I know most of this was my doing. I've asked for forgiveness but I feel like God has turned away from me. We have both sinned in our marrage but I know we're both sorry, we both hurt each other but I feel like his heart has harden towards me and I cant get him to give me another chance. Even though I gave him his chance after he cheated on me. I miss my family I cant continue to go to sleep without them. I feel like Im not strong enough to continue to deal with this. I pray and pray and I don't want to give in and give up, but I cant see any light in his eyes anymore for me. I dont want to bring up divorce Im scared I dont want to be divorced. I need prayer for my husbands heart to soften towards me and filled with forgiveness, love and compassion again towards me. I want my family back. I want another chance at my marrage I need peace in my mind and heart and to be happy. I need prayer for this depression that I have at times I just want to end my life I really do but I can't. Im fighting with myself and it's driving me crazy

 

[splendidtree]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[sharonjoan]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[dcrandjr]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[kayandmitch]

The one you should be angry at is satan , the bible tells us that he comes to kill , steal and to destroy . God is the only one we need to turn to for our help . As far as your husband is concerned , God has given us all a free will , our choices are our own , all you can do is keep praying . Blessings

 

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[Datdude365]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.