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Prayer Warrior
God my heart has grown cold! What is scaring me and making me angry at the same time is that i feel apathic and indifferent towards your reality Lord! Don't feel the need to pray or read the bible, in fact this is the first prayer in two or three weeks. Never felt so disconnected from You like know! I only pray when i'm in need or afraid and as christian life is depending on you everyday i feel i'm being an opportunist that is using belief only to withdraw some benefits. The weirdest thing is that I'm questioning all I believed to be true. I feel angry with my self for my actions are just leaving me further away from your presence! What I used to be with You Lord and what I am know Lord, it's unbelievable! I'm not believing anymore, i wan't to but I'm just feeling stone cold! What should i do? In Jesus name i pray amen