AGAPE55
Beloved of All
Lord God I need you. Only you know how much I have suffered as a mother over my son Anthony and the choices he makes in life. He is so confused and trapped in a cycle of running away from his problems. He struggles with alcohol and anger but I also know he has a lot of deep pain and insecurity. God I have prayed so long and so many times for the renewal of his spirit and for the rebirth of his whole being. I just got the surprise yesterday that he is back from Minnesota. He didn't say a word that he was coming but he did find a place to live in New Jersey. God I need you to help me stop worrying about him and I want to stop living with constant fear that something's going to happen to him. It's so hard because he puts himself in the worst compromised positions. He's my first born and I love him so much. He has all the right tools to make it in life like a high education and intelligence but he falls into the foolishness of all the temptations of the world. God help him. God help me. The constant stress and worrying is wearing me down. God I want to see my son doing well. I want to feel assured that the day I leave this earth that he'll be okay. I don't feel that now. I'm sorry God that I don't trust you more like I should. I continue to pray that you help my son become the man you put on this earth to be and that you open his eyes so that he stops following the world. Help me to surrender to you and your will for his life. Help me to fully trust in you. I pray this request in the name of your precious son Jesus Christ. Amen.