Let's lift up 
Let's lift up 
Hemwul
Disciple of Prayer
My Father, John, is 65, Orthodox Jewish and full of anxiety, pain, hurt, hatred, and I am hurting seeing this anger & how hard my Dad is on himself. Three biological children, 2 live girls and my younger brother that passed away 24 hours after birth from microcephaly. My Mother has suffered w mental illness and was sodomized and raped by her stepfather for years and her stepfather was my Dad's best friend. I am the oldest daughter (not including older step brother and a younger stepsister, as well, that has given way more issues than I gave and when parents divorced, I was given as a ward of the State. I am asking for mercy, miracles, restoration, and for a supernatural light to shine in me that can help my Father to be willing to accept the Lord, be willing to try a medicine that will calm his nerves, and have these mental illnesses and religious OCD on top of all the abuse we all suffered to be heated in the MIGHTY NAME OF YESHUA. My Father bonded me out of jail the 1st time ever yesterday. I am his oldest daughter that he feels like a failure for so much with me. The Anorexia and Bulimia almost taking my life at 10 years old when I was starving myself and I was only 54 lbs that hospital bill I'm about broke my father on top of my mother's mental illness bills and he could have filed bankruptcy and pride kept him from doing it and he paid off that off. My dad is not Disturbed so much that has happened to him and for the last 13 years I've been ivy fentanyl heroin user and since the beginning of the year my father has lost 23 lbs and his stomach has been really hurting him with the nervousness about me and this is the first time I've ever left anywhere and I don't want to get high because I want my dad to be okay and I want to see him laugh there is so much more to the story and I just pray for whoever we bring this just for a miracle with everyone in the family hallelujah! He asked me last night what am I going to do with my life he just gets so aggravated at everything I just pray that I can break through and pray for him I've never felt like wanting to be clean on my medications right now but in order for my father to have peace and everything gets him so angry I struggle with other mental illnesses in the Lord has healed me from anorexia and believe me I had an aunt pass away in generational curses just like crazy in my family my mother right now is a reason what part of it that I was arrested and I already have four cases that I'm fighting and I do pray for favor with that if someone would lift me up and these would be dismissed in the mighty name is Jesus there was a police officer that was charged with raping me in the state of Indiana and apparently I was not important enough for them to go through with the prosecution and I kept on getting drug charges and please doing shady things to me after I came forward about what one of the former officers did to me and I have been done so wrong with that my dad deserves a break and I thank God he's able to do exceeding it finally the ball that we ask her thing according however it is through Christ Jesus and I just ask for someone to find intervention and anyone can send me a message at any time thank you that there's lighter than this tunnel and that I found this site and is there any father-daughter devotionals or any advice you may have I just am so willing to take it I'm as eldest daughter I've done so much rebellion when I was younger and I actually look like his mother that had away and left him when he was young and you developed a great relationship at the end she passed away a few years ago that was my Grandma Gail and she lived in program Nevada and I sure wish I was able to know her better! My dad is very big and the Jewish community now and he's so unhappy thank you that he's going to come to the Lord thank you thank God the Lord and keep me strong in his mind and the power of his will I need his strength to be able to do this I want to function I want to laugh with my dad I want to see him not me myself up and I know he feels my anxiety and it drives him crazy. My dad hasn't laughed and I just want to see him laugh without a tear and the healing to start the stomach issue I just ask that we go away and then the Lord will help me to stay clean with my medications right now to take them and then help my father to give in to take something to calm him if that's what needs to be he's too hard on himself and so angry. I love the Lord and I haven't given up hope I remember hearing hope doesn't have feathers and if faith is a substance of things hope for and that evidence of things on scene and I hope is pregnant with faith and that's what I want to be pregnant with and I've wanted children my first one was taken from me and all my children were I just think of restoring all these years to me at 39 years old it's just a miracle would happen and a relationship with my dad that I've never had before and even with my mother the Lord will heal her mentally blessings were just rain down from the north Southeast and west fun in everything turned back to us in the enemies stolen and I pray this for everybody here as well and I just thank you for your testimony is and how good God is thank you for whoever reads those in his touch by this and I think for your sincere prayers my name is actually Shannon Doherty like the movie star and I know it's hard to forget I always wanted to be in movies when I was younger and I actually that's kind of funny I have an uncle the reason all the mighty ducks movies his name is Matt Doherty and Dad's youngest half brother and 7 years older than I and I always would look up to him and wanted to be able to act and have the years restored to me to be able to act out the things that have happened and what I've been through and the testimonies that I've lived through and just start a new life family that everything which is be perfected by the Lord according to someone 38:8 and I just thank you for lifting my dad I've been prayer and myself and all of us my real sister Aaron hates me for my children were taken and I was called the breeder beautiful children in my I made pretty babies I had a cousin take my daughters and they end up getting taken from her and when I was pregnant with my first born my step mom's sister wanted custody of him and that's where he's with I never did her drugs until after my second one was born. Thankful that my father finding me out of jail I just pray and financially it's the Lord just said release blessings there give me ideas for inventions or just arts and crafts with the passion that used to have to create things and how I know it Exodus is somewhere and even having Jewish blood but being chosen we are chosen in the beloved and we are the righteousness of God through Jesus Christ and no good things thank you movie withheld from them that walk uprightly and I believe that's all made for 11 or 87 11 and thank you for everyone & your prayers.
