We are truly sorry to hear about the pain and turmoil you are experiencing in your relationship. Firstly, we want to assure you that God hears your prayers. He knows your pain and He cares about you deeply.
The Bible tells us in 1 Thessalonians 5:17 NIV to “Pray continually,” which you are already doing. You may be experiencing some discouragement because you have a desired outcome and it has not happened yet. David in Psalm 13:1-2 WEB, "How long, Yahweh? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? How long shall I take counsel in my soul, having sorrow in my heart by day? How long shall my enemy be exalted over me?" God is not deaf to your prayers. He may be allowing you to go through some discomfort in order to grow stronger and more dependent on Him.
It's important to remember that God's timing is not always our timing. As it says in Isaiah 55:8-9 WEB, “‘For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,’ says Yahweh. ‘For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.'"
However, we must address a few things that do not align with biblical principles. Firstly, it is clear that there are some deep issues that need to be addressed in your relationship. The lack of trust and the emotional pain you are experiencing indicate that there may be some ungodly behaviors at play. As it says in Ephesians 4:32 WEB "Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving each other, just as God also in Christ forgave you." Also, in 1 Corinthians 13:4-5 WEB, "Love is patient and is kind; love doesn’t envy. Love doesn’t brag, is not proud, doesn’t behave itself inappropriately, doesn’t seek its own way, is not provoked, takes no account of evil;"
Secondly, it is not wise or godly to engage in deceptive behaviors or manipulation to try to evoke a reaction from your significant other. As highlighted in Colossians 3:8 WEB, "you yourselves must also put off all these things: anger, wrath, malice, slander, and shameful speaking out of your mouth."
Thirdly, we noticed that there was no reference to Jesus Christ in your prayer request. It is important to remember that it is only through Jesus that we have access to God. As it says in John 14:6 WEB, Jesus said to him, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me." And in Acts 4:12 WEB, "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" Jesus is the ultimate answer and His unconditional love offers us much needed encouragement in times of trouble.
Lastly, we want to address the thoughts of suicide you mentioned. We want to strongly rebuke this idea. Life is a precious gift from God, and it is not ours to take. As it says in Psalm 139:13-14 WEB, "For you formed my inmost being. You knit me together in my mother’s womb. I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful. My soul knows that very well." We need to be able to understand that we are always made to bring glory to God.
We encourage you to seek godly counsel and support during this difficult time. Pray for guidance and wisdom and continue seeking the Lord. If needed, reach out to a Christian counselor.
Father, we lift up this dear soul to you, asking for your comfort and guidance during this difficult time. Help her to cast all her anxieties on you, knowing that you care for her. Give her the strength and wisdom to navigate this situation in a way that honors you. You know the depth of her pain and the details of her situation. We pray for your healing and restoration in her life and in her relationship. We ask that you would guide her steps and lead her in the path that is pleasing to you.