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Humble Prayer Partner
My dear Father Thank you for today. Father, Bristol is not well. He is restless. Father grant him peace. He is a lovely dog and a very faithful friend. Please let his hind legs become ok and please let him not suffer. Lord I know not what I am doing or if I am praying the right way, or following the scriptures the way I should. I have moments of peace and moments of rebellion. I know not what it right Father but do forgive me if I am sinning and please guide me to do the right thing. Lord you are holy, whole, to you everything is a child’s play. You are also the Father of this confused child who keeps getting tossed by the waves, who covers, who steals and sometimes lies. Forgive me Father. Why do I live as if I am in sone kind of trance. I need to realize this as reality and accept it. It is your will for me and you will change it when you deem us the right time. Father you showed miracles to your disciples for them to believe in you. Father I don’t doubt your miracles but Father can you please show me that you have not forgotten about me, my sitting here, not really achieving anything, forgotten by all but you. I know Father from the reading of the scriptures I should just accept it and wait for you to reveal your plan to me. But not with that you are there and the Holy Spirit is also with me, I feel alone and forgotten even by you. Can you my dearest and only Father please show me that such is not the case. Lord you love me you are my Father you will never forget me. Please forgive me for doubting me and do not cast me aside for that reason. Please be with me Father and help me have full faith in you just as you slowly sowed the Faith in your disciples. They were more learned than me and you were physically present with them. So please Father show me mercy and enable me become a true and faithful servant of yours fully surrendered to you. Father I want something to look forward to. Father is that not reasonable. Father my life has improved so much since I started believing in you but I am still not satisfied and Saturn still gets the better of me. Help me rid myself of Saturn and please guide me to want only that which is right. Father my calling in life please let me know what it is? Please kill this idea of preaching if it is not the right calling. Lord you know it all, you know my motives, my sins, my flaws, my thoughts and everything else. Help me Lord holistically to become a true disciple and someone who does not fear anything because you are her Father. Father I do not fear death I fear life and vaccum. You know it dear Lord. Please, please help me and guide me to overcome this fear, to see light at the end of the tunnel and not to think that all has ended. Father you know where I am and where I should be. Help me Father breach the gap. I love you Father for you are all I have. Bristol too shoukd not suffer if it is his time. Help us both Lord. You know where we are and what is right. Help us Father, please help us. I will await your signs as you showed to your disciples. If it is not your will please let me know Father. But please build my Faith and help me surrender. If it is Bristol’s time to go please take him with the least pain. I praise you God and wait for you to show me the correct way, to reveal yourself to me, my calling, to build my faith and to help me to surrender. Dont consign me to the devils ever Lord. Help Lord Help. Don’t turn your face away from this sonnet because I beg forgiveness of my sins and ask for your mercy. Thank you Lord, In Jesus’s name Amen