Tethbraxruk
Disciple of Prayer
Today I visited my dad in the hospital after his seizure last night. I prayed all night last night for a miracle that maybe the seizure was the cancer leaving his body as I prayed so desperately for. And I actually fell asleep listening to a mass online, it just played through multiple prerecorded masses all night in a playlist. I actually woke up at the end of one of the masses and as I woke up I said “thanks be to God.” I really was so faithful and at peace believing everything will be okay and my dad would be better by the time we got to the hospital again. But now that I’ve been at the hospital my faith is just broken and my prayers just feel empty. My dad’s condition has worsened he can’t even find the strength to drink water right now. He has been sleeping all day he’s exhausted. He hasn’t been as lucid and responding as he normally did. I just feel so broken because I truly did believe I saw signs from God and Jesus that they would heal my dad and I prayed so much and believed so hard. Now I’m just at a complete loss. Please pray for my dad. Please pray for me and my family.