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moratuwa
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My current partner treats me like I am not good enough, the family also has issues.
My family is not supportive enough of me, they always except failure from me, whenever they comment about me they always talk about how someone else is better than me in all aspects, I cant even visit them because I know I will be talked down and looked down upon. I live with my sister, I never know what to expect each day going home, I might get home and things are happy, or wish I had just stayed at school.
I am in my final year at school and although I got financial assistance from some firm, I still do not have a job for next year. I am dreading Christmas day because everyone including my aunts, uncles and cousins and my brother and sister know that I have been applying and going for interviews, but I still have nothing for next year. almost all my friends in my year have jobs secured for next year but I still have nothing. about Christmas day when my extended family is there, I know they will be talking about my cousin who is finishing high school this year and is very intelligent, they will be talking about his achievements and counting my short commings, I do not think I can handle that again. I do not have anyone to protect me at home, My father always finds ways to tell and show me how dumb I am and how I will never succeed in life, I am so tired. I feel suicidal again lately but I do have a little bit of faith which tells me to just hold on, but it seems the more I hold on, the more things become worse. I am even afraid to pray.
I need to cover because I decided to help people with some of the money that my mother left me when she passed away, and now those same people dont help me when I am in need and I do not have enough now, it hurts me deeply because they now have more than me, use it so I can see, yet they dont remember what I did or maybe they take it for granted. Now I feel bad and I need a good job so I start over.
I pray, but to be honest, my faith is so small now because it seems like every time I pray I get the opposite of what I prayed for.
I need a miracle, I am so lonely.
To get a good job that pays well and where I will be happy at.
I will be going to an interview soon, I am hoping for the best.
My family is not supportive enough of me, they always except failure from me, whenever they comment about me they always talk about how someone else is better than me in all aspects, I cant even visit them because I know I will be talked down and looked down upon. I live with my sister, I never know what to expect each day going home, I might get home and things are happy, or wish I had just stayed at school.
I am in my final year at school and although I got financial assistance from some firm, I still do not have a job for next year. I am dreading Christmas day because everyone including my aunts, uncles and cousins and my brother and sister know that I have been applying and going for interviews, but I still have nothing for next year. almost all my friends in my year have jobs secured for next year but I still have nothing. about Christmas day when my extended family is there, I know they will be talking about my cousin who is finishing high school this year and is very intelligent, they will be talking about his achievements and counting my short commings, I do not think I can handle that again. I do not have anyone to protect me at home, My father always finds ways to tell and show me how dumb I am and how I will never succeed in life, I am so tired. I feel suicidal again lately but I do have a little bit of faith which tells me to just hold on, but it seems the more I hold on, the more things become worse. I am even afraid to pray.
I need to cover because I decided to help people with some of the money that my mother left me when she passed away, and now those same people dont help me when I am in need and I do not have enough now, it hurts me deeply because they now have more than me, use it so I can see, yet they dont remember what I did or maybe they take it for granted. Now I feel bad and I need a good job so I start over.
I pray, but to be honest, my faith is so small now because it seems like every time I pray I get the opposite of what I prayed for.
I need a miracle, I am so lonely.
To get a good job that pays well and where I will be happy at.
I will be going to an interview soon, I am hoping for the best.