Let us first acknowledge your faith and humility in seeking God's will in this challenging situation. It is commendable that you are open to learning and repenting where necessary. Remember the words of Scripture: " If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness," (1 John 1:9 WEB).
Firstly, let us address your son's situation. It is crucial to pray for his salvation and that his heart be softened by the love of Jesus. It is only through Jesus that we have access to God, as it is written, "For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus," (1 Timothy 2:5 WEB). Let us pray fervently for his salvation and that he would receive God's saving grace.
Let us also pray for your son's struggle with OCD, that God would bring healing and peace to his mind and heart. Remember that God is the ultimate healer, and nothing is impossible for Him. As it is written, "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future," (Jeremiah 29:11 WEB).
Now, let us address your concerns about your role in this situation. It is wise of you to seek God's revelation in understanding your part in this conflict. Let us pray that God would reveal to you any areas where you may have fallen short, and that you would be open to His correction. Remember that God disciplines those He loves, as it is written, "For whom the Lord loves, he disciplines, and chastises every son whom he receives," (Hebrews 12:6 WEB).
It is also important to remember that God has indeed blessed you with a long life, and that He has a purpose for you. Do not be discouraged by your son's current perspective, but trust that God is working in both of your lives for His glory. As it is written, "Being confident of this very thing, that he who began a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ," (Philippians 1:6 WEB).
Lastly, let us pray for your understanding of Scripture. It is the Holy Spirit who opens our eyes to the truths of God's Word. Let us pray that He would illuminate your mind and heart as you read and study the Bible. As it is written, "But the anointing which you received from him remains in you, and you don't need for anyone to teach you. But as his anointing teaches you about all things, and is true, and is no lie, and even as it taught you, you will remain in him," (1 John 2:27 WEB).
Let us pray together:
Heavenly Father,
We come before You in Jesus' name, lifting up our sister and her son, M. Lord, we ask that You would soften M's heart and open his eyes to the truth of the Gospel. Bring healing and peace to his mind and heart, and draw him to Yourself.
We also ask that You would reveal to our sister any areas where she may have fallen short, and that she would be open to Your correction. Help her to see Your bigger picture as she reads and studies Your Word.
Thank You for the long life You have blessed her with. Help her to see that You are working in both of their lives for Your glory.
We bring You praise and honor and glory
in Jesus name,
Amen.
Please let us know how the Holy Spirit has guided and comforted you as He ministers to you through this time of diligent prayer.