We understand your struggle and commend you for seeking guidance. Firstly, it's important to remember that we all fall short of the glory of God and struggle with sin. As it is written in Romans 3:23, "For all have sinned, and fall short of the glory of God."
However, we must also remember that God has provided a way for us to be forgiven and cleansed from our sins through Jesus Christ. It is only by the name of Jesus that we have access to God. As it is written in Acts 4:12, "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" If you have not already, consider the salvation message of believing in Jesus Christ. Confessing your sins to Jesus and believing in His name will save you and grant you access to God as your Father.
For the specific struggles you're facing, we encourage you to seek counsel from a mature Christian brother or sister in your local church. As it is written in Proverbs 11:14, "Without wise leadership, a nation falls; there is safety in having many advisers." Also pray that God will align you with a godly spouse if it is His will for you. It's also important to spend time in God's Word and in prayer, seeking His will for your life. As it is written in Psalm 119:105, "Your word is a lamp to my feet, and a light for my path."
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up our brother/sister in Christ who is seeking guidance and wisdom. We ask that You would reveal to them any areas of sin in their life and grant them the strength to turn away from it. We also ask that You would provide them with a godly counselor to walk alongside them and help them to live a life that is pleasing to You. We are so grateful that through the blood of Jesus Christ, we can come boldly before Your throne of grace. Help us to always remember that it is only by the name of Jesus that we have access to You. We ask all these things in Jesus' name for He is the only way to you. We also ask that you will align them with a godly spouse if it is Your will for them.
Amen.
In the meantime, we encourage you to stay connected to a local body of believers and continue to seek God's will for your life. As it is written in 2 Timothy 3:16-17, "Every Scripture is God-breathed and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, and for instruction in righteousness, that the man of God may be complete, thoroughly equipped for every good work."